It's today that I finally realize the answer all along was never you, it was me. It's today that I took a stand. It's today that I empower myself and no longer need your attention, your fake and see through concern. You can't tell someone so many lies that they begin to try to connect the dots just to get a clear image. The same image they should ( Read more... )

I know I deserve better.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 ( Read more... )

One of the greatest people that has ever walked into my life once told me: once you release your thoughts and get them off your chest, those words/entries are placed into a sort of trash can. I've been thinking a lot about the past, the present, and what the future may hold for me. It's surreal how moments in time throughout my own past are ( Read more... )

i will not lie, not this time ( Read more... )

[..So its been interesting. Met some new friends. Got a raise/promotion and on top of that an 875 dollar cash bonus. Im flying shizy out here with me for a little while. woot woot<3 ballin.. anyways i miss her like crazie and i want her in *my* world for a little while. So as soon as the 15th comes or around that time im buying her a plane ticket ( Read more... )

[..friends only bitches, comment to be added..]

[..So many things have changed in the past what seems like forever since i've written in this thing, so i thought for my own benefit i'd take a minute to jott it down. I've been constantly working, although our overtime is downplaying at this point but will probably flare up again a little bit closer to tax time. I started forgetting my past and ( Read more... )

[..Im back in north carolina, I got back into town on wednesday around nine or so. Its so nice to be back, and this time drama free. Today I spent the day with my sister and my lil nephew. He is the cutest kid in the entire world. We got his five month pictures taken and I got to stand in one with him. So when they get ready for pickup I get a five ( Read more... )

{..Well everything is going pretty good, I thought I was about to have a run in with the cops but nick took care of that. Damn Im so glad shes back in my life, thats my homie foreal. I also been talkin to jesca a lot, shes a girl I went to h.s. with and she was my bestestest friend. We'd lost contact because she moved to the beach and i moved here ( Read more... )

[..How are you suppose to forgive and forget the past if it keeps representing itself in different forms and in different faces in your life. How are you suppose to be completely devoted and put your trust completely in someone just to watch it crumble in your hands the second you think its safe to turn your back. Ive given up so much, taken so ( Read more... )