with my feet upon the ground i move myself between the sounds and open wide to suck it in i feel it move across my skin i'm reaching up and reaching out i'm reaching for the random or what ever will be wilder me whatever will be willed on me.

never have i done anything so emotinally difficult. that's a lie .. because i still have jason . i lost the other him . so did everybody else . but i can't stand to just sit and watch as everything starts falling apart.. so i made a change. but why the fuck is it so difficult to stay to that change .. to understand like i did before i tried to fix ( Read more... )

what a FUNNN night : ) last night we had a surprise party for jason's birthday which is tomorrow. went well i think, that cake was pretty fucking good for some drunk munchies, ahah.. hmm.. there was me, jason, jenn, emily, adam, amanda, josh, scott, kirk, julia, matt, chelsea, alex f, and pat w. which was a good crowd because it wasn't dull. better ( Read more... )

well today i was sick. last night i went for a run on the tredmill for an hour and i haven't ran in awhile so i was sore too. but i felt like i was going to faint and shit. weekend will soon be here though : ) tomorrow night i think we're goign to watch some fight thing on the rockies.. and then on saturday we're partying for jason's 17th birthday ( Read more... )

Old man lying ( Read more... )

going to try to update everynow and then so that maria can actually have interest in my entries. i know you're reading this, dear. haha ( Read more... )

WELL. nobody reads this. so .. PARTY TONIGHT AT MY HOUSE : ) it's going to be deadly. i'm pumppppeddddd . anyways. peace homebros.

soooooo sick of school. although the year went by fast, i just can't wait until summer is finally here. i gotta get a job too .. shoppers or dominion hopefully. i also gotta go to driving school. meh whateverr. anyways i have half of my exams done.. 3 to go. i'm prepared for pretty much 2 out of the 3.. cause economie is just going to kill me. i ( Read more... )

very nice day out today. i have jazz band tonight, that kindof sucks.. today i had to get up really early and go to this ms walkathon thing.. i almost died because it was pretty hot and we had to walk pretty far. after, jordan's band was playing there, it was cute. after when i came home, i went out to tan for about half hour then watched mean ( Read more... )

if i've learned one thing in the past year, it's that you're not sexy unless you're a hoe with nice lips, or a size 7 and under.