Writing again for the first time in a long time. typing on the keyboard for something for myself and not for any class' papers feels strange, almost illegal, like i'm not allowed to do anything for myself until march ends ( Read more... )

Last night, while partying it up with neighbors i don't normally talk to the other 364 days of the year, while downing all sorts of drinks, jumping like crazy up and down, singing my heart out to 2012(as well as other songs) on the makeshift karaoke, and pretty much just enjoying the fireworks display, i realized that 2011 has been truly good to me ( Read more... )

nagulat ako kasi akala ko ikaw na nga, at akala ko akala mo rin. pero hindi pala.

ano na gagawin ko ngayon?

( meep )

never has my self-worth sunk to this low. and how timely, too, just when everything is about to take on a major overhaul. add to this the feeling of being betrayed. why so?

losing a big part of your self-confidence can be quite unnerving. no matter how much everyone tells you that you shouldn't, in the end, you still end up listening to yourself. when you're a little older, you're not supposed to do the usual teenage angsty shiz like listen to sad music and write lengthy entries in your blog, but WHAT THE HELL AM I ( Read more... )

naloloka na ako. ano na ba talaga te?!

my dad and i have never been on good terms with how i've been running my life for as long as i can remember. i am the prodigal daughter: i should have been a prima ballerina, i should have been a pianist, i should have been a doctor, i should always be in the top n of the class and all these were paid for just so i could be just that. i went ( Read more... )

with you and me, it's always a competition. whatever we do, either together or at the same time, someone's always got to win. why won't you let me win just this once? or HELP me, instead of rubbing it in my face that i'm always second best next to you.

i heard this line in a networking talk i semi-forcedly attended today ( Read more... )