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Last night, while partying it up with neighbors i don't normally talk to the other 364 days of the year, while downing all sorts of drinks, jumping like crazy up and down, singing my heart out to 2012(as well as other songs) on the makeshift karaoke, and pretty much just enjoying the fireworks display, i realized that 2011 has been truly good to me.
2011 was a crazy up and down year, full of unexpected twists and turns. A lot of the year's events, i super didn't expect at all because of the way they would just jump out and present themselves to me, in a "pick me! pick me!" kind of way.
Crazy how elections started it all. the first two months of the year was spent on training, training, training on how to be a UP politician. i would wear the same clothes in the same color palette for several weeks, spent nights staying up to study on campus and national issues, cut many many classes, shook hands with and smiled at many many people, cried in front of people i never thought i would, met a GREAT set of people, made a whole lot of good friends, and most importantly, learned how to defend my principles no matter what the cost. i didn't win, yeah, but it was God's way of telling me that this wasn't for me, cos He had SO MUCH MORE in store for me the coming year. i decided to run for Alyansa secgen, which i got. though i had no idea what i was getting into.
The issues in UP street, especially with the compet team, also started this year, which really rocked our faith and trust in the system. i remember dealing with questions that i didn't know how to answer; i remember wanting to take a side and lashing back but knowing that to be the better person, you have to go beyond that; i remember praying so hard for the group not to be torn apart by all external issues. i remember being really hurt by the very people i loved so much, but in the end, i finally learned to forgive them (and with me not just saying it).
I also graduated this year, albeit a .04 away from Latin honors. never mind, let me rationalize this by saying that this GWA, given everything i've done and been doing for the past four years in college, is a big ass achievement. haha. but i didn't want to work yet at all; i wanted to take an MA in Media Studies, major in Broadcast communication. so i had the form already and all that, was filling it out and running answers through my head, when i saw a small note at the end that one of the requirements was that i needed to have at least one year's worth of work experience. dammit. so finally, on the last minute, on the very last day of filing, i submitted all necessary papers for a second degree in BA Broadcast Communication, meaning i would be an undergrad again.
I'm actually pretty lucky my parents agreed to this. they said, "basta kaya pang kumayod", or "kung diyan ka talaga sasaya". i guess they kinda got the hint that i didn't want to go to med school (or maybe that was when i intentionally didn't apply to take the NMAT haha). at least i can say it out loud now that i don't want to be a doctor. haha. so anyway, i still had to take the test and the interview. after the interview, i remember praying to God and making a deal: if it was for me, then i would get in. if it wasn't, it was His sign that He wanted me to work already (and i'm pretty sure He'd give me that work He wanted for me). aaaaaand well here i am, into the second sem of BC. three more sems and I'M DONE BEYBEH. i'll find work fo real, no more studying.
needless to say, it was helluva transition phase. BC is SO SO SO different from psych. for one thing, in psych, everything is theory based, and the methods courses would be our only application. in BC, only required comm classes would be taken with you sitting on your seat for the entire semester. the actual majors would have lecture classes like 20% of the time; 80% was spent on applying what you learned. and not just apply-applyan lang, as in recording and shooting and auditioning mics and sleepless nights editing and writing and going out on the field and interviewing and getting turned down and voice acting and always being updated on the latest news (which is why i got twitter haha). and the TEACHERS. so different from the sweet, funloving, crazy, kalog psych profs. they had entirely different personalities at kelangang pakisamahan or else hindi ka nila makikilala at hindi ka tatatak sa kanila. and the culture in itself was a shocker to me. not only did i have to adjust to the baklaan culture, i had to do so in such a short span of time because i had to balance my majors together with it.
on a side note, i got avecilla as my prof again. kilala pa niya ako in fairness. applauded loudly when i told him i broke up with my atenean boyfriend. haha. maghanap na raw ako ng bago sa campus.
i joined DZUP Radio Circle in my first sem as a new undergrad, and again, i got a great set of friends. org application in CMC are so different from CSSP org applications; more brutal, i guess? but everything made sense afterwards, so i guess it was okay. even though everyone is pretty much younger than me, i really appreciate the fact that they don't "Ate" me and treat me differently just because i'm older and "more experienced". i have yet to spend time with them, but already i've got good friends in CMC who've helped me and who'll help me survive and i'm good with that. never mind that they're four years younger than me. haha. nagkakatalo-talo kapag nagtatanungan na ng year of birth. 1993 DAW?!?!?! grabe marunong na akong magbasa nun.
this was also the year that i really grew as a dancer. i was tasked to handle the applicants for UP street this year, and it was such a challenge because it meant, firstly, that i had to teach streetdance, and secondly, that i had to choreograph for them. thankfully, i had so much opportunities to also grow in those aspects because so many international choreographers, who became my friends as well, came to the Philippines to share their knowledge. I'm super grateful to Paul and April for everything they taught me, and to ReQuest Dance Crew for INSPIRING ME SO MUCH to strive to grow and improve and love and be great at what i do. ReQuest was the first group whose performance made me cry cos they were JUST SO GOOD.
i also went with some Crew members to Iligan to do hiphop workshops, one to a whole gymnasiumfull of people, and another to deaf kids. it was really so inspiring. and the best part of it all was that I DIDN'T SPEND A SINGLE PESO for myself (except to buy pasalubong). grabe. super duper fun pa :)
in terms of family, we really did get a whole lot closer this year. i think it was mainly because everyone's growing up so quickly, so there was a need to sort of rush things. it also helped that my relatives from the states came home for christmas and new year, and we had the ferrer-padilla-tolentino reunion, which was the first time i met all my second cousins and everyone else above and below and in between on my dad's side.
in terms of the little things, i did a lot this year. started to grow my hair, and to entertain me while it grew, i colored it light brown. drove N number of miles to nueva ecija and back. also took the theater 130 movement class in my last sem as a psych undergrad, which made me touch base again with my contemporary dance side.
2011 was one of the best years of my life so far. everything i learned this year, everyone i met, every single moment i experienced, made me a better person. Thank You, Lord. :)
word/s for 2011: blessings. trust. resiliency. :)
I spent the last day of 2011 and the first day of 2012 reconnecting with my two longest friends. i guess a lot was said and done in our pasts that i realize we've all got to forgive and move on. maybe i'm too nice, too forgiving, too understanding, but as long as hindi pa naman nang-aabuso, and marunong naman magsorry, okay na sakin yun. to be super kadiri cliche about it, life's too short to hold grudges. won't let that be my fatal flaw :))
resolutions! i resolve to:
- greet people on their birthdays, kahit facebook lang
- be more consistent with my devos
- hold my temper but know when to get angry
- stop being afraid to try new things
- find a way to earn even if i'm studying
THANK YOU 2011. LET'S GO 2012!!
2011 was a crazy up and down year, full of unexpected twists and turns. A lot of the year's events, i super didn't expect at all because of the way they would just jump out and present themselves to me, in a "pick me! pick me!" kind of way.
Crazy how elections started it all. the first two months of the year was spent on training, training, training on how to be a UP politician. i would wear the same clothes in the same color palette for several weeks, spent nights staying up to study on campus and national issues, cut many many classes, shook hands with and smiled at many many people, cried in front of people i never thought i would, met a GREAT set of people, made a whole lot of good friends, and most importantly, learned how to defend my principles no matter what the cost. i didn't win, yeah, but it was God's way of telling me that this wasn't for me, cos He had SO MUCH MORE in store for me the coming year. i decided to run for Alyansa secgen, which i got. though i had no idea what i was getting into.
The issues in UP street, especially with the compet team, also started this year, which really rocked our faith and trust in the system. i remember dealing with questions that i didn't know how to answer; i remember wanting to take a side and lashing back but knowing that to be the better person, you have to go beyond that; i remember praying so hard for the group not to be torn apart by all external issues. i remember being really hurt by the very people i loved so much, but in the end, i finally learned to forgive them (and with me not just saying it).
I also graduated this year, albeit a .04 away from Latin honors. never mind, let me rationalize this by saying that this GWA, given everything i've done and been doing for the past four years in college, is a big ass achievement. haha. but i didn't want to work yet at all; i wanted to take an MA in Media Studies, major in Broadcast communication. so i had the form already and all that, was filling it out and running answers through my head, when i saw a small note at the end that one of the requirements was that i needed to have at least one year's worth of work experience. dammit. so finally, on the last minute, on the very last day of filing, i submitted all necessary papers for a second degree in BA Broadcast Communication, meaning i would be an undergrad again.
I'm actually pretty lucky my parents agreed to this. they said, "basta kaya pang kumayod", or "kung diyan ka talaga sasaya". i guess they kinda got the hint that i didn't want to go to med school (or maybe that was when i intentionally didn't apply to take the NMAT haha). at least i can say it out loud now that i don't want to be a doctor. haha. so anyway, i still had to take the test and the interview. after the interview, i remember praying to God and making a deal: if it was for me, then i would get in. if it wasn't, it was His sign that He wanted me to work already (and i'm pretty sure He'd give me that work He wanted for me). aaaaaand well here i am, into the second sem of BC. three more sems and I'M DONE BEYBEH. i'll find work fo real, no more studying.
needless to say, it was helluva transition phase. BC is SO SO SO different from psych. for one thing, in psych, everything is theory based, and the methods courses would be our only application. in BC, only required comm classes would be taken with you sitting on your seat for the entire semester. the actual majors would have lecture classes like 20% of the time; 80% was spent on applying what you learned. and not just apply-applyan lang, as in recording and shooting and auditioning mics and sleepless nights editing and writing and going out on the field and interviewing and getting turned down and voice acting and always being updated on the latest news (which is why i got twitter haha). and the TEACHERS. so different from the sweet, funloving, crazy, kalog psych profs. they had entirely different personalities at kelangang pakisamahan or else hindi ka nila makikilala at hindi ka tatatak sa kanila. and the culture in itself was a shocker to me. not only did i have to adjust to the baklaan culture, i had to do so in such a short span of time because i had to balance my majors together with it.
on a side note, i got avecilla as my prof again. kilala pa niya ako in fairness. applauded loudly when i told him i broke up with my atenean boyfriend. haha. maghanap na raw ako ng bago sa campus.
i joined DZUP Radio Circle in my first sem as a new undergrad, and again, i got a great set of friends. org application in CMC are so different from CSSP org applications; more brutal, i guess? but everything made sense afterwards, so i guess it was okay. even though everyone is pretty much younger than me, i really appreciate the fact that they don't "Ate" me and treat me differently just because i'm older and "more experienced". i have yet to spend time with them, but already i've got good friends in CMC who've helped me and who'll help me survive and i'm good with that. never mind that they're four years younger than me. haha. nagkakatalo-talo kapag nagtatanungan na ng year of birth. 1993 DAW?!?!?! grabe marunong na akong magbasa nun.
this was also the year that i really grew as a dancer. i was tasked to handle the applicants for UP street this year, and it was such a challenge because it meant, firstly, that i had to teach streetdance, and secondly, that i had to choreograph for them. thankfully, i had so much opportunities to also grow in those aspects because so many international choreographers, who became my friends as well, came to the Philippines to share their knowledge. I'm super grateful to Paul and April for everything they taught me, and to ReQuest Dance Crew for INSPIRING ME SO MUCH to strive to grow and improve and love and be great at what i do. ReQuest was the first group whose performance made me cry cos they were JUST SO GOOD.
i also went with some Crew members to Iligan to do hiphop workshops, one to a whole gymnasiumfull of people, and another to deaf kids. it was really so inspiring. and the best part of it all was that I DIDN'T SPEND A SINGLE PESO for myself (except to buy pasalubong). grabe. super duper fun pa :)
in terms of family, we really did get a whole lot closer this year. i think it was mainly because everyone's growing up so quickly, so there was a need to sort of rush things. it also helped that my relatives from the states came home for christmas and new year, and we had the ferrer-padilla-tolentino reunion, which was the first time i met all my second cousins and everyone else above and below and in between on my dad's side.
in terms of the little things, i did a lot this year. started to grow my hair, and to entertain me while it grew, i colored it light brown. drove N number of miles to nueva ecija and back. also took the theater 130 movement class in my last sem as a psych undergrad, which made me touch base again with my contemporary dance side.
2011 was one of the best years of my life so far. everything i learned this year, everyone i met, every single moment i experienced, made me a better person. Thank You, Lord. :)
word/s for 2011: blessings. trust. resiliency. :)
I spent the last day of 2011 and the first day of 2012 reconnecting with my two longest friends. i guess a lot was said and done in our pasts that i realize we've all got to forgive and move on. maybe i'm too nice, too forgiving, too understanding, but as long as hindi pa naman nang-aabuso, and marunong naman magsorry, okay na sakin yun. to be super kadiri cliche about it, life's too short to hold grudges. won't let that be my fatal flaw :))
resolutions! i resolve to:
- greet people on their birthdays, kahit facebook lang
- be more consistent with my devos
- hold my temper but know when to get angry
- stop being afraid to try new things
- find a way to earn even if i'm studying
THANK YOU 2011. LET'S GO 2012!!