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So todays the 9th which means tomorrow is the 10th which means its been almost 2 years since Rudy killed himself. I bet no one knew that..why should anyone? He was a loner, no one really took the time to know him so he left us. But for those of us who have known him for a long time (ie: elementary school) and for his family its one of the worst ( Read more... )

I'm going through that phase again. The one where i miss justin like crazy and wish i could bring Chris back :/ i don't know its just, summer. Justin left me almost 3 years ago this july and Chris died almost 6 years ago this august. I don't know its just that they were my best friends and i never made anything right. I let Justin leave after ( Read more... )

I haven't updated this damn thing since march maybe because i have no time?Or i just don't feel like it? I really don't know. Anywayssss ( Read more... )

Last night fucking sucked for many reasons. In general i fucking HATE the Norris' more than i ever have, and i don't feel like explaining it. Other than that my hair is black..yea black!I put pictures on my myspace.

What a waste of an update...what a waste of life.

Last night was fun as hell. omggggg. hahaha. 
So i got there after my psych appt. and Bryan had already left @ 3 to go see a movie w/his  family
And Chad was leaving for work :(
So it was just me betsy kate jessie & chase
Well we were in the kitchen and looked outside the window to see where Kate & Jessie had gone
And Dan wojo was outside her house!haha ( Read more... )

So life right now..yea it sucks i guess i can say that.
I feel like nothing at all matters to me anymore
I'm back to crying almost every night
And regreting every damn thing i've ever done
I really can't wait till my psych appt. on wednesday
I have so much to just get off my chest and open up about
But then i fear that hes going to tell my mom
everything
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I'm finally getting medical help, like going to see a Pshyciatrist. OH fuck. I already had one appointment and the last thing out of his mouth was "would you be willing to go onto medications" ooo yay i'm gonna be on about 74123890 medicines for anxiety, depression, sleep & anger. Then i'm gonna go into relapse and be about x7430291847201 worse ( Read more... )

I haven't updated in such a long time but oh well. I'm just updating on my trip to danbury yesterday cause i never want to forget it i guess ( Read more... )

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