I've been living for tomorrows all my life
I'm going through that phase again. The one where i miss justin like crazy and wish i could bring Chris back :/ i don't know its just, summer. Justin left me almost 3 years ago this july and Chris died almost 6 years ago this august. I don't know its just that they were my best friends and i never made anything right. I let Justin leave after telling him he wasn't my best friend and never saying goodbye. I saw Chris' accident, i could of done something, i know it..but w/e i can't keep dwelling on it :/ i'll be ok :)
School is almost over, which means summer i just around the corner :) i can't wait, i really really can't. I know that its gonna be better than last year and i'm so excited :D i wanna spend more time with Kate this year too, she is my BFF after all ;) i think random get togethers w/her chad me & joe are a must need! I can't wait for the carnival, i don't know why. Maybe because last year was completly amazing? Having all of us together not caring about anything and just messing around, was great. I'm just so excited! Its my second summer without Justin and i think it'll be alot easier than last year was. I know its going to be :) as long as things with Joe and i stay perfect like they are right now, i know summer will be amazing!
I spent allll weekend with Joe :) and i must say it was AMAZING!He met my moms family on saturday and he wasn't all weird around them :D He slept over here friday night and i slept over his house last night :) I love being with him :) its kind of hard when people keep calling me but when they don't, its so perfect and amazing :) i'm gonna marry this boy, i know it!Hes amazing, he treats me better than ANYONE, my friends adore him, my parents love him, MY DAD APPROVES :0 and he makes me smile constantly. Its perfection :)
I'm in a weird mood again, i'm happy but yet i miss justin & chris like crazy :/ oh well whatever. I'm not gonna cry i'm not gonna cry i'm not gonna cry..haha!
School is almost over, which means summer i just around the corner :) i can't wait, i really really can't. I know that its gonna be better than last year and i'm so excited :D i wanna spend more time with Kate this year too, she is my BFF after all ;) i think random get togethers w/her chad me & joe are a must need! I can't wait for the carnival, i don't know why. Maybe because last year was completly amazing? Having all of us together not caring about anything and just messing around, was great. I'm just so excited! Its my second summer without Justin and i think it'll be alot easier than last year was. I know its going to be :) as long as things with Joe and i stay perfect like they are right now, i know summer will be amazing!
I spent allll weekend with Joe :) and i must say it was AMAZING!He met my moms family on saturday and he wasn't all weird around them :D He slept over here friday night and i slept over his house last night :) I love being with him :) its kind of hard when people keep calling me but when they don't, its so perfect and amazing :) i'm gonna marry this boy, i know it!Hes amazing, he treats me better than ANYONE, my friends adore him, my parents love him, MY DAD APPROVES :0 and he makes me smile constantly. Its perfection :)
I'm in a weird mood again, i'm happy but yet i miss justin & chris like crazy :/ oh well whatever. I'm not gonna cry i'm not gonna cry i'm not gonna cry..haha!