"Life was what happened when all the what-if’s didn’t, when what you dreamed or hoped or - in this case - feared might come to pass passed by instead ( Read more... )

The cold is bigger than I am.
The best I can do is sway like the trees, bend to the day.
Change rules the earth.
Trees don't want to lose their leaves
But it's still beautiful.

The wind is picking up momentum and it’s driving me mad.
I’d like nothing more than to be a seed,
Flying through the air at paramount speeds,
Recklessly soaring across the nation..
Destination unknown

sleep. dream filled sleep right on the end of the earth. wake and find yourself alone. not alone, lonely.. deep lonely, like the darkness past the edge came and slowly, carefully dragged the breath of your lungs, the beat of your heart, the fill of your veins, through your throat and from your bare mouth and kept them to live on, for you to watch ( Read more... )

I want to dance wth you barefoot in constellations, moving under the changing patterns of the sky above us and its hues of lavender and periwinkle. I want to move, change, and grow with you. I want to sit with you on porches when we are old and wrinkly; I want to watch your hair grow grey under the passing of time. I want to stay by your side and ( Read more... )

If I feel so free, why are all my words stuck. Should I not try to analyze a feeling only I can know? I want to be outside looking in; I don't want to be trapped inside. Latley I can't stay in my own room. Everything familiar is boring me. It's not that I NEED change, I'm just starting to open my eyes to what has always been there that I have ( Read more... )

rip sidekick
rip backyard swimming pool
:(

goodbye probation!
hello the rest of my life
:)

happy birthday kori!
sake bombs at mt fuji♥
:)

Driving home on a rough tongue just to be swallowed in dark?

Streetlights lead me but could it be that I'm just slightly frightened?

Sometimes they resemble teeth ready to crash into me.

Sometimes I resemble a crash.

I don't know where I am anymore, it's like I've dissolved and resorted to drifting and gliding through what my life should be. Sometimes I know, sometimes I'm grounded in the reality that has been created for me, but the other times I'm dissociated ( Read more... )

I got offered a $10,000 scholarship per year at Temple University :) I'm real pumped to get this school year over with and to get out of here. I'm actually motivated right now to do the right thing and get my shit done so I can have an amazing summer before I go away. I've been clean for 25 days, and I'm not really sure how I feel about that right ( Read more... )