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If I feel so free, why are all my words stuck. Should I not try to analyze a feeling only I can know? I want to be outside looking in; I don't want to be trapped inside. Latley I can't stay in my own room. Everything familiar is boring me. It's not that I NEED change, I'm just starting to open my eyes to what has always been there that I have neglected while trying to search for myself. HAH.. that was a mistake. Why did I put my life on hold to try to find something that is already there? I don't need to know how I feel all the time. I'm beginning to think that it is okay to not know anything, actually. As long as I can accept it and as long as I'm at peace, then I think I'll be okay. Maybe I was speaking for all the wrong reasons because all the right ones are just too hard to say. Maybe I've been half-assing my way through life. But I'm tired of just sitting back and dreaming. Dreaming is for when you're asleep, isn't it? My eyes are open but I think my ears are the only things working. It's time for me to breathe. How typical of me.