now when all starts spinning, he holds me steady
he knows me better than i ever knew myself
& he teaches me so so much about finally being comfortable in my own skin

(does he love me because im beautiful?
                         or am i beautiful because he loves me?)

 Poetry to be posted at http://duckcrossing-inkblot.blogspot.com

 Dear friends,

I was taking a stroll toward friendship but I tripped and fell right into love. It was an accident. I'm sorry that you don't believe in what I feel. I'm sorry that it isn't conventional or doesn't meet your skeptical standards. It just IS. And it makes me beautiful because HE thinks I am. If you think you can vocally batter me into ( Read more... )

 I was so excited about going to Washington, DC. I really was. And its been literally YEARS since I've been sick. Tell me why at four in the morning on the day I was supposed to fly there did I start throwing my guts up every fifteen minutes? And I was so delirious that I couldn't think to call and change the flight or get online and do it because ( Read more... )

 love is an effing pain.

i wish it didnt have to hurt so much.

love is not tragic
its indescribable
inconceivable
unreasonable
intolerable
and nauseating
it keeps you awake at night
haunting your dreams
your thoughts
your every wondering
it hinders you
your ability to sleep
your will to eat
and as ill as it makes you
you cling to it
because once you have felt it
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 fuck. me.
i dont know why i let myself believe in things.

 so this is what it feels like to love someone so much that it aches. really physically aches inside not to be able to be with him.

why did i ever want this?

 katie mae schmidt is finally IN LOVE.

its kind of spectacular.

So, I spoke to Hayden's younger brother[Lewis; 19] yesterday for the first time and he said that his cousin, Fred, thought that I was 'choong' and that, to be honest, Fred wasn't wrong. Alright, I'm sure I'm not the only one who has never been called choong before, because it just doesn't sound like something you'd want to be!! I didn't say ( Read more... )

 Its kind of sad that I'm finally happy and none of my friends want to hear about it. All I hear is how unrealistic it is, how ridiculous, how unorthodox, silly, childish and WRONG it is. They say he lives in SPAIN. Or they say we MET ONLINE. What does it matter? Better to meet someone online and talk to them everyday for hours and hours and get to ( Read more... )