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Its kind of sad that I'm finally happy and none of my friends want to hear about it. All I hear is how unrealistic it is, how ridiculous, how unorthodox, silly, childish and WRONG it is. They say he lives in SPAIN. Or they say we MET ONLINE. What does it matter? Better to meet someone online and talk to them everyday for hours and hours and get to know them than to meet in a fucking club and sleep with him the same night, in my opinion.
Why is everyone so damn opposed to Hayden? He's done NOTHING WRONG. Why should I feel like I can't tell my BEST FRIENDS about him? Why should I feel STUPID if I like or, GOD FORBID, love him? Love comes in all shapes and sizes. There is no right or wrong way. Tell me how you can be gung-ho about two GUYS "being in love", and yet disapprove of me and Hayden!?
Even if you think that I'm setting myself up for heartbreak, that is MY decision. Its just like any other relationship with its uncertainties and imperfections. Even a girl that met her boyfriend when she was FIVE at SUNDAY SCHOOL can have her heart broken by him. I'm so fed up with people judging me.
This isn't going to change because you oppose it or deny it or think it unreal. I love my friends, but when it comes to me and Hayden, their opinions DO NOT BELONG. So let me put it out there plainly and please know that it isn't something I have ever EVER claimed before and it is not lightly said:
I LOVE HAYDEN MATTHEWS.
& no matter what the eventual outcome, I will NEVER regret him. He makes me HAPPY and he loves me AS I AM and has never expected anything more. And I'm tired of having to hang my head or mumbled when all I want to do is SHOUT THAT HE MAKES ME SO INCREDIBLY HAPPY INSIDE.
Why is everyone so damn opposed to Hayden? He's done NOTHING WRONG. Why should I feel like I can't tell my BEST FRIENDS about him? Why should I feel STUPID if I like or, GOD FORBID, love him? Love comes in all shapes and sizes. There is no right or wrong way. Tell me how you can be gung-ho about two GUYS "being in love", and yet disapprove of me and Hayden!?
Even if you think that I'm setting myself up for heartbreak, that is MY decision. Its just like any other relationship with its uncertainties and imperfections. Even a girl that met her boyfriend when she was FIVE at SUNDAY SCHOOL can have her heart broken by him. I'm so fed up with people judging me.
This isn't going to change because you oppose it or deny it or think it unreal. I love my friends, but when it comes to me and Hayden, their opinions DO NOT BELONG. So let me put it out there plainly and please know that it isn't something I have ever EVER claimed before and it is not lightly said:
I LOVE HAYDEN MATTHEWS.
& no matter what the eventual outcome, I will NEVER regret him. He makes me HAPPY and he loves me AS I AM and has never expected anything more. And I'm tired of having to hang my head or mumbled when all I want to do is SHOUT THAT HE MAKES ME SO INCREDIBLY HAPPY INSIDE.