I'm not quite sure how to handle all of this. Last night through casual conversation Matt decides to tell me that he hasn't let go of me, and that he knows I haven't let go of him either. We then proceeded to have a three hour long conversation about the pitiful excuse we had for a "relationship ( Read more... )

Have you ever met someone so perfect for you, that it almost makes you angry ( Read more... )

"He told me about this game that he plays called 'Porkers'.You put a bunch of money in a pot at the beginning of the night, then you go out and find the fattest girl you can and fuck her. You have to bring her to breakfast the next morning where a person who isn't playing judges who is the fattest. The guy with the fattest  girl wins all of the ( Read more... )

Sitting in my house with the rain falling. Not a soul in the whole place, other than myself and my dog happily chewing his raw hide. 
Only the sound of rain against the windows and Alanis singing "Your House"

This is peace.

EDIT:
I threw in a bottle of Champagne for good measure, I think it was a good choice

Well it's back to the same old shit again. I honestly don't know how I keep finding different versions of the same guy over and over again, and I fall for the same shit over and over again. Jason forgot to call me on Thursday, and I saw him later that night when I went to Dan's to get my beer. I was pissed. He sent me a message saying that he didn' ( Read more... )

So I'm supposed to go out tonight with Jason ( Read more... )

I thought I saw your face today
but I just turned my face away
Your face against the trees
but I just see the memories
as they come
as they come
And I couldn't help but fall in love again
No I couldn't help but fall in love again

I saw it glitter as I grew
and love did what I never knew
I thought this place was heaven sent
but now it's just a ( Read more... )

So I planned out what to do, the next time we met. I knew he would be at the upcoming Man Man show. I picked out a great outfit, figured out what I would do, I decided on hitting on one of his best friends in front of him. It was going to be perfect, and it was going to be on my terms ( Read more... )

So there is a part of me that replays everything that happened between matt and I. And I kind of get nostalgic, but it may just be that I miss being cared for and I miss having a man beside me at night ( Read more... )

"You can come over if you want. I can't guarantee you any attention though."

Seriously? Last time we hung out I decided to call him out for being a drunk ass and not speaking to me even though he invited me over there. I spent that whole night sitting on his bar, talking to his fucked up friends, while he went inside, got stoned, and decided to jam ( Read more... )