I don't know why you mean the world to me, I would do anything for you. I honestly think it's because the words you used to say to me, nobody has ever said to me. The way you acted towards me nobody else has. you're the only person who has ever made me feel like you actually loved me and cared about me. I am sorry I hurt you back then. You've ( Read more... )

( If I could go back to this.. )

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In exactly two days, my dad will have passed away six months ago. I don't even understand how this time has just flown by, how I have been so pointless and done nothing but get drunk and forget. Whenever I actually sit down, and have memories, it just hurts even more. I really don't know what to do, so if anyone has advice of how to get better, ( Read more... )

somebody please tell me. what am I suppose to do? you've died and I'm here, thinking that I hear your voice ( Read more... )

Today at work a younger man, a younger woman, and an older man walked in. The man ordered coffees, and the woman picked up the Austin American statesman, and just started balling crying and couldn't even stand up. The older man started crying, and the younger man said "I'm sorry, our brother passed away and was murdered last night and there's an ( Read more... )

I'm really glad everyone is stoked on all your materialistic presents, but all I want cannot be given back to me and it's like a stab in the heart. I laid in bed for over an hour this morning talking to him. I'm not crazy. I know he heard me. I spent christmas morning with my mom drunk, and crying, and smoking, waking up at 6:45 with her never have ( Read more... )

My thanksgiving was lonely and I hated it. Thanksgiving meal with the family just seemed awkward, it was just weird without him there talking to everyone and making good conversation ( Read more... )

Having almost an identical dream of what happened that night and waking up crying. holding his hand and him squeezing my hand every time i told him it was me, or that i loved him, he tried to speak but he couldn't or even see out of his eyes. running down the hall from a phone call only leaving the room for a few minutes to go pray in the church ( Read more... )

I never even imagined this one person would make me feel so incredibly horrible. I've never felt so sick to my stomach. I want to disappear for a while.