I turn 21 this month and i don't know what to do for my birthday.. I wanted to have a party but I have a feeling not many people would come since so many parties have happened up here lately, so maybe ill just go downtown.. but my best friends arent 21 yet. :(

i'm in desperate need of money..badly.

haha ok ignoring all my previous posts, I am so fucking in love right now ( Read more... )

i feel so sick to my stomach.
This sadness has just over come me completely, I feel so sick.

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God. I miss you so much. No matter what it always comes back into my thoughts. I don't know how I'm doing so well without you here. I can't stand it sometimes though, I still cry about you not being here so much. It's been over two years now, rachael. Move on. I will never get over this, just learn to live with it.

perfect perfect perfect perfect.

last night was perfect and today was perfect.

I don't know what I'm doing or what I want.
sooo confused.

I also wish I could just be a nurse already and not have to go to school for it.
I desperately need a new job, I just hate mine and every minute I'm working I wanna quit.
I'm so so so excited to see lydia and then brand new, two bands i've been constantly listening to lately.

So my mom is in rehab and has been for 14 days. I talked to her the other day and she actually sounds like she has changed/wants to change..but we never really know until she gets out..September 5th. I have really high hopes for her, and I really hope she changes. I want to have a relationship with my mom because she's really all I have. If she's ( Read more... )

I'm so fucking happy lately. that's all that matters ( Read more... )

holy fuck I am so happy. BOY=wonderful. I move into my town home in two weeks! I start school on the 25th! ugh everythings perfect.

everything is falling into place. bought all the furniture basically for our apartment already. hardly spent as much money as I thought. Going to San Antonio to see Fear Before tomorrow! Really happy and all of that. My mom is going to rehab the 27th for 45 days.. but I move out on the 8th. So I still have to come home every day and feed the ( Read more... )