i had a sudden urge to jump in my car and drive as far away from here as possible earlier. i thought about just up and leaving my life here and going up to michigan to start over. i would get the things i needed and pile them in my car and just leave. i wish i could sometimes, but theres no way i could begin to leave right now; not how things are ( Read more... )

he pisses me the fuck off. why cant he stop being a child and grow up and actually face problems? he got pissed at her tonight when i came over, said that he was mad because she spends too much time with me. with that remark, i call him a complete fucking retard. hes with her a lot more than i am. he gets to sleep at her house, which is something i ( Read more... )

i was asked the question one time 'if you could have any superpower what would you have ( Read more... )

so my day has been a roller coaster ride through the mind of a depressed/happy person. this is rediculous, i mean things did get better for a while. she ended up coming over after a while, and she asked me why i looked so sad. its so funny, because she seriously is like the only person who can see through my fake smile. i told her what was going on ( Read more... )

my mother sure knows how to cheer me up. "its a saturday and youre home alone? sounds like youre having a fun night"...why does everyone have bad timing on making the stupid comments. i am seriously extremely lonely right now, that did not help at all. on top of things, my whole dinner plan, yea, didnt work out. he took her out to eat instead. now ( Read more... )

today is a down minute. ive been up since 10, and i was happy during the beginning. everyone left and i did too, but afterwards i had time to think on the drive to la grange. i dont know what it is about the shortest time i have to myself, but i think constantly about my life. i try and analyze everything; maybe to make sense of it, or try to. i ( Read more... )

well, my life is a roller coaster. one minute im up, the other minute im down. tonight was an up minute. went to the movies with her and her friends. i went to school with them, but i had never really met any of them, so i was being paranoid and thought maybe they would think im a jerk. turns out theyre just like the rest of us; meaning that we ( Read more... )

its funny looking back at yourself over the years.

4 years ago:

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well, things go up and things go down.
im used to it by now.

so i tried cooking a steak tonight. it actually turned out to be really good. i should try cooking more often ( Read more... )