i had 2 horrible dreams this morning ( Read more... )

its been 9 months since kenny moved and 4 since we broke up, but those memories are still there. every picture i have of him i have memories. theyre brutal. some have good memories some have bad, but they always bring up emotions. i never want him back. ever. he did me the best favor by dumping me because now i have eric forever to love and hold me ( Read more... )

im so miserable here. theres nothing to do and i have no friends. i have no job. i may not even get to have one at all because no one seems to want me or have room for me in a job. ill have no money and without money i wont be able to see eric because i wont have gas money. id have to rely on his money and i dont want to do that. i just want to be ( Read more... )

everyone i talk to says "youll be fine" but "...eventually" is the part they forget to add ( Read more... )

everyone went away to college last year and had a good time. i should have gone too. they look like they had so much fun in their facebook albums meeting new people, going fun places, drinking, i feel left out. i hope i can have as good of a year as they did ( Read more... )

KiLLeR BuNNiEz14: hi ( Read more... )

KiLLeR BuNNiEz14:  im already excited! arent you even the least bit antsy to put this trip together so we can meet?
KiLLeR BuNNiEz14:  hmm?
Joshskylands:  i am
Joshskylands:  but we cant do it yet
KiLLeR BuNNiEz14:  it will be more easy once we get a job and start working
Joshskylands:  yea maybe
KiLLeR BuNNiEz14:  it will be perfect even if we stay in ( Read more... )

chris ( Read more... )

this has been the longest yet shortest, dullest yet nervewracking, numb, miserable, consfusing,uneventful summer ive ever had. my mind is bouncing off the walls from all the boredom and drowning in the millions of unanswered questions and vague descriptions of college. they are endless and unrelenting coming to me day and night, awake or asleep. i ( Read more... )

im going to make this short. last night my mom and i were here in my room looking at cats on the mspca site and other sites. i saw a couple of cats i would love to have but i know they wont be there when i get there. then hilary comes home yelling wanting to know where we were and she walked into my room with another cat! and it was sneezing and ( Read more... )