what i'd like to say...
chris-
are you sure you don't have a girlfriend already? you have mostly girls as friends on your myspace. i dont know, i am just afraid this wont work and it will just hurt both of us wanting something we cant have. i cant make up my mind about this. i sit and daydream of being with you but then i also have times when i am worried i will miss my perfect opportunity to snatch my perfect guy because i am waiting for you to get your act together and come meet me. and the scary thing about that is that when i think of not being involved you (only when i'm in this mood) i feel relieved and free. sometimes that scares me. you flatter me and make me feel very good, but im starting to wonder if thats just the kind of guy you are and you're just a "smooth operator" with girls. i cant watch what you do or know about what you do in real life, i can only go by what you say and i want to trust you but part of me has a hard time doing that. im paranoid about a lot of things and this is one of them. i want to be happy, and by that i mean i want to be able to have a full time boyfriend not a part-time one. but then, you make me happy. by that i mean that you say something nice, flattering,or funny and i feel like i know you and so filled with happiness that we found each other. i feel like maybe, just maybe, if you were telling me the truth about your intentions you would have IMed me atleast at one of the two times we were online to wish me a happy 18th birthday. thanks a lot because now i feel just great about our situation. what the hell am i supposed to think...
are you sure you don't have a girlfriend already? you have mostly girls as friends on your myspace. i dont know, i am just afraid this wont work and it will just hurt both of us wanting something we cant have. i cant make up my mind about this. i sit and daydream of being with you but then i also have times when i am worried i will miss my perfect opportunity to snatch my perfect guy because i am waiting for you to get your act together and come meet me. and the scary thing about that is that when i think of not being involved you (only when i'm in this mood) i feel relieved and free. sometimes that scares me. you flatter me and make me feel very good, but im starting to wonder if thats just the kind of guy you are and you're just a "smooth operator" with girls. i cant watch what you do or know about what you do in real life, i can only go by what you say and i want to trust you but part of me has a hard time doing that. im paranoid about a lot of things and this is one of them. i want to be happy, and by that i mean i want to be able to have a full time boyfriend not a part-time one. but then, you make me happy. by that i mean that you say something nice, flattering,or funny and i feel like i know you and so filled with happiness that we found each other. i feel like maybe, just maybe, if you were telling me the truth about your intentions you would have IMed me atleast at one of the two times we were online to wish me a happy 18th birthday. thanks a lot because now i feel just great about our situation. what the hell am i supposed to think...