cw: 125
gw(1): 117 (By Nov 27th)
gw(2): 115 (By Nov 29th)

I am going on a 7 day fast. Who wants it as bad as I do? I deserve unquestionable beauty. I deserve a breathtaking happiness that only comes from being thin. My ex dumped me when I was at my thinnest, and I'm going to have to see him eventually...well next time he sees me he's going to want me ( Read more... )

So today I had coffee with a friend after work at this cafe and there was cake and stuff but i didn't have any! YAY ( Read more... )

I am starting to feel weak. UHG. Having some tea hopefully will tide me over. Gonna have to go to bed early.
As I was walking into my building some guy stopped me. I had seen him inside the dep and he smiled at me.
My first reaction was that I did something wrong or he needed directions but ....

"Excuse me miss? I just had to tell you, you're so ( Read more... )

Well it's day 5. I'm 131.2...and Im really happy but I am getting kind of hungry...it's hard because I know you need food to survive but if I could just not eat until the 16th I'd be so happy.

But i get the feeling I'm going to fail, just by eating a little bit. uhg.

131.2!!!!!

Closer and closer!

<3 And when I get home tonight I have to cleaaaaan, fun!

Hope everyone is thinking thin!

It's funny that I'm very good at fasting, but if i have a little tiny piece of food I'll go into binge mode. I have such a hard time restricting cals so I just fast. It's easier for me because I know if I have soup I'm going to want bread or something.

All I need is my coffee, cigarettes and hot baths and I'll be okay. I'm gonna make this a 11 day ( Read more... )

Wow! I am insanely proud of myself. I just went to buy cigarettes and I had $15.
I bought some cat food, cigarettes and I had some money left over....and I looked around and was SURROUNDED by fatty food. Chocolate bars, bagels with cream cheese, chips, ice cream, pizza and guess what?!

I BOUGHT WATER!

I am so happy! and I can't wait for my sunday ( Read more... )

I went shopping today! Got THE hottest steve madden shoes. And a matching hand bag! Naughty but no food! food free! Tomorrow I have work god I hate my boss a little...alot. X_x uhg. But still NO FOOD! UNTIL MARCH 17TH or so. Atleast not until I'm 120! <3

I am fasting until the 16th baby! that's 26 days without food. I can do it!
I wanna go downtown today! and buy shoes to encourage myself.

nobody can do this but me! I AM IN CONTROL DAMMIT!

You know I can eat like a whole pizza. It's insane but I've done it...
It's hard to think that after I lose all the weight I want to I won't just shovel it all back in my mouth.
Being thin isn't easy. You have to want it bad enough. I think I do, but you know what would be great motivation?
A new wardrobe. I figure if I only had size 4 clothing, if I ( Read more... )