Well, deleting Facebook was overall a good choice for my mental health but it has really really served to highlight how few friends I actually have. Like, people I can confide in versus people whose lives I just sort of keep up on and have a peripheral relationship with. Therefore, seclusion. Particularly with training 4 days a week for my third ( Read more... )

I deleted my Facebook in mid-August. It was a good choice for my mental health ( Read more... )

Received two nice compliments yesterday (context: competing at a taekwondo tournament)

#1) "You'll be dead for three or four days before you finally fall over." (Re: my stubbornness/perseverance against crappy odds)

#2) "Yeah, but you're all muscle." (Re: comparing body weight with another grappling competitor/semi-regular training partner)

12-31-11: Hopefully this time next year will see me: married, sane, gainfully employed, and a taekwondo second dan.I am now all of those things ( Read more... )

I can't deal with my life right now. I'm not even feeling anxious or unstable per se, just incredibly run down and exhausted ( Read more... )

Well...it has been some time ( Read more... )

Dear christ, 7 weeks until my second dan test.

Brb, shitting my pants.

More later.

I've been having a lot of mood swings lately. Guilt-ridden anxiety attacks, too. It is unpleasant and makes it hard to take myself seriously ( Read more... )

Today was a cooking day. I made a huge batch of shrimp fried rice, another of spaghetti with marinara, some chicken and rice, some rotini with butter and baby tomatos, and a batch of chocolate chip cookies. Between that and the tuna for sammiches that Jon will be whipping up later, I think we're probably good for this week's lunches. :-) I also ( Read more... )

There's a lot in my head that I want to write about. I've been swinging a lot between stomach-clenching worry and rage face-worthy carefree happiness. The subject of the worry changes day by day, but it's always obsessive and rather pathetic ( Read more... )