i wish i had a best friend. a real best friend. i'm not sure if i ever have had one. and that really bothers me.

i'm so alone. and i hate that. i can't wait to be back in school again.

ugh i and i hate having no life outside of work and my family. and i hate even more being in this mood where i just see the bad in everything. because that's not me. ( Read more... )

I'm so numb, and I've realized that I have been this way for three years. Three whole years.

I just want to feel again.

My freshman year of college is over. Wow time is passing so fast. I was reading back on my entries, and they start all the way back in the beginning of high school. It's just so weird ( Read more... )

I'm so lost.
I wish someone would just tell me what to do.
or at least listen.

ps i wish you were here, cause you had all the answers

 "The most important things in life are the hardest things to say. They are the things you get ashamed of, because words diminish them--words shrink things that seemed limitless when they were in your head to no more than living size when they're brought out. But it's more than that, isn't it? The most important things lie too close to wherever ( Read more... )

 i'm a graduate!
one of the very few in my family.

summer has begun, and its been alright so far. i'm hopping for more nights like last night.
plain white t's show, the sunset, the fireworks, the sponaneity.

so yeah, high hopes for this summer. 
don't let me down, please.
i wanna leave this place on a good note.

14 days until i am done at merrimack high school. i can't even believe it. but i couldnt be more excited for change ( Read more... )

what is it that is so wrong with me?
I just don't understand.

 I think things are finally becoming clear to me.
and as much as it hurts, i think I just need to face the truth and move on.
I know i'm better than this.

At least I also know who'll be there even when no one else seems to be.

thanks for a good weekend,
i needed it.

 where has this year gone ( Read more... )