I am feeling sorry for myself. I didnt go to class today. I woke up with a fuzzy plan to accomplish something today. My mother woke up with the idea that I would accomplish nothing, and so she locked the door to the computer room. This kind of control angers and hurts me. Without fail anytime that I woke up early to do something, my mother believes ( Read more... )

hier gave me a questionnaire:

1. Where do you see yourself in five years?

Hopefully graduated from college.... I hope to be happy, in a really cool downtown apartment, with some sexy chica and Milo. Of course I will de drop dead gorgeous, somewhere sunny where I have to wear a minimal amount of clothing, and can surf ( I dont know how to surf). Bu ( Read more... )

I am so restless, I just don't know what to do with myself, so I do nothing. There are so many injustices, all of which I want to fix, and then I grow tired just from thinking about them. I am fighting the urge to withdraw ( Read more... )

Today was really mediocre ( Read more... )

I have decided to beat the bloat, I dont want to be part of the epidemic of fat people in the world. Its a drain on resources, you just need more of everything... everything. I cant say shit about the environment of people who drive gas guzzling cars while I haul my fat ass around. I know it wont be as easy as I think, since I have to get to the ( Read more... )

I decided to leave happy thoughts. I quit my job at foley's. This is a happy thing, even though today I got a bill for $658 from a collection agency. I have learnt my lesson, and shant use credit cards any longer. About $500 of those dollars are from interest though ( Read more... )

I dont know why things have taken the turn they have. I have a relationship so important to me with Hani, and yet lately when I say what I think or feel it seems to just push him further away from me. I am so afraid of losing him. Nothing is permanent, why this? I dont want to be guided by my fear, but lately, its like, how can you speak to me, or ( Read more... )

I am a mess, I just cant seem to keep things together, its like once I fix one thing, the rest of it all goes to shit ( Read more... )

    Its a funny thing love. I feel that we are slaves to the notion of  love, and yet I feel that it is the most powerful of human emotion. There seems to be no love without pain, and perhaps it is what makes it the sweetest of emotions.

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I feel that I may buckle someday under the pain of unrequited love. ( Read more... )

I really thought that I liked (liked) Hani for like 3.5 seconds, however with him somehow I feel lied to. I feel like he is so different with other people. I mean we all change a little around different people, its only natural, but I feel like around other people he treats me like a casual acquaintance, two people who meet briefly, as opposed to ( Read more... )