I was ok with lying to myself. Until I wasn’t ( Read more... )

“Haven’t had a dream in a long time.” Until last night. It’s the first dream I remembered having in who knows how long. Not the usual suspects either. The only thing I can remember is that A was in it. Why…? If I believed more strongly in premonitions, I would probably think it’s a sign about the future to come. The road to recovery it going to be ( Read more... )

This is turning into the longest week. Sort of. It’s already Wednesday though. Paradoxical feelings. Every once in a while, I feel like my heart stops. My chest hurts. I didn’t eat breakfast, but that’s probably because my will to wake up in the morning has nearly vanished. So dramatic. Listlessness. I catch myself staring off into space. Yesterday ( Read more... )

I am sinking. The combination of everything that has happened over the past few months and again the last 36 hours is rearing its ugly head. Maybe I’m just exhausted from not getting enough restful sleep, or the pain from playing taiko in the hot sun while hung-over may be affecting me. But regardless, I feel like shit. I am sinking ( Read more... )

Besides the happiness that is listening to this new mini-album by OLIVIA, I'm freaking the hell out ( Read more... )

It's temporary, and it's more likely frustration, but gahh ( Read more... )

My fish are dying ( Read more... )

Today (Tuesday AM) I got back from Hawaii. I was going to describe some of the highlights. But being as I am, I had to check facebook first ( Read more... )

It was all over today when I moved out and finished the last of my meal points at OVT (only 1 cent left... wow ( Read more... )

As though I haven't complained enough, yet another thing irked me (beyond usual) today with the residence ( Read more... )