I am not a victim of others, but rather a victim of my own expectations, choices, and dishonesty. When I expect others to be what I want and not who they are, when they fail to meet my expectations, I am hurt. When my choices are based on self-centerdness, I find I am lonely and distrustful. I gain confidence in myself, however, when I practice ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel like I'm gonna die. Or pull my hair out. All I hear about from work from the chick I work with is how I ain't doing right. She thinks b/c I wanna go to a bar and see what it's liek that I'm not doing right. Then I was talking about drinking tequilla and she was like you don't need to be drinking anyway you're not 21 and I was like ( Read more... )

We weren't here when it happened. Thank God. What if they would have had a gun. I'm really glad we weren't alone either. I didn't sleep well last night and every little noise makes me skitish. And I remember I was just sayi8ng how nice this place is and how no one has given us any trouble. Well I guess I fucking spoke too soon. Brad was very calm ( Read more... )

So on Thursday my kidneys were really really hurting me. So much that I stayed in Buford so I could go to the doctor and my mom could get my medicine. Urinary tract infection. Caused my alcohol comsumption and stess, so my doctor said. SHe gave me these horse pills. Well I had a sore throat too and it was really hard to swallow one of them so it ( Read more... )

Okay so two days after my drunken sadness thing would make the day wednesday. Mine and Brad's first date. Even thought it feels like we've been on quite a great deal of them. I was to be up and dressed at 11. I still pretty much felt like poo. We didn't leave the apartment til like 12 b/c I wanted to finish watching Xena and make sure haley got ( Read more... )

I drank half a bottle of Absolut vodka last night. I had called Caroline earlier that day and I was crying to her and then I called her back and told her I was drinking vodka and I poured another shot and took it. I still didn't drink myself down as much as Aaron did when we were in atlanta. I got up and wanted more shots and but I couldn't b/c ( Read more... )

I really have to say that I had more fun drinking than being at AWA. The dealer's room sucked so much this year. I spent less than $20 and last yeah I spent like $130 or something like that. Haley and I got our pictures taken a few times. Mostly by all these old balding guys but hey what can you do???? Umm the hotel room was amazing. I think I ( Read more... )

Advanced Big 30 Personality Test Results
Sociability |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 82% Aggressiveness |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 90% Assertiveness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Activity Level |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Excitement-Seeking |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% Enthusiasm ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Extroversion |||||||||||| ( Read more... )

I went to work on thursday and didn't get to come back here to macon. Atlanta was flooded and trees were falling all over Buford while back here things were fairly calm. I came back friday at like 12 and Blake came over and he and I watched Shaolin Soccer. It was a really great movie and for some reason I could totally see Han loving it...a lot. ( Read more... )

Yeah it was a dizzying day. Ihad to take back a skirt b/c i got it 4 sizes too big and Dustin and I went out to eat chinese food and I was wearing the cutest outfit. I felt really pretty *_*. I was wearing white lacy thigh highs and I was wearing a mini black skirt and a tank top with a jacket. Haley said I looked business woman hot with a dash of ( Read more... )