Sep 20, 2004 11:56
I went to work on thursday and didn't get to come back here to macon. Atlanta was flooded and trees were falling all over Buford while back here things were fairly calm. I came back friday at like 12 and Blake came over and he and I watched Shaolin Soccer. It was a really great movie and for some reason I could totally see Han loving it...a lot. After that I went to Dustin's because I wanted to see what was so crazy about Silent Hill 4. It was a very interesting game. Jim was playing it and then Jason came over. We showed him the hotel room that we would be staying at for AWA. Which I am so excited about by the way. My outfit is so freaking rock out loud. AWA is like the only place where you can dress like a hooker and not like have people want to buy you...or something like that. My outfit consists of a black knit shirt that falls off of my shoulders and is completely see through ( I'm gonna be wearing a bra with it and that's it), a white mini skirt that has two ruffled layers, white garters and thigh high stockings, and the hottest pair or shoes that I found thanks to haley the great ^^. I think I knew I wasn't gonna go to bed on Firday night. I had to be out of here by five b/c I had to work a double . Haley and I asked jason and brad and blake over to watch trainspotting. Dustin didn't feel like movies so we called him after it was over and he hobbled on over to the apartment. We were all gonna hang and chat but haley and I got hungry so off to waffle house we went. I was dressed very much like a guy. I had on my glasses and my hair was pulled back and I had on a North Carolina hat and I sweatshirt of my brothers that he got from aeropostale...it was three sizes too big for me. So we're all sitting there and the waiter is dong a very good job. And Dustin says take off your glasses and I was like no...and the guys were like yeah come on why??? And I said yeha I wear my glasses to hide my face sometimes when I feel insecure...and I wouldn't be able to see. So we all go on with our meal and then the waiter comes back and he is all like well I heard what these guys said about you taking off your glasses and I will pay for half of your bill if you take them off for five minutes and I was like ok sure. Then he said now, I'll pay the whole thing if you take off the hat too. Well I didn't. There was no way I was gonna take off that hat that I had been wearing for some many hours. And the thing was the waiter didn't look all that bad. I was schocked. He looked like Matt Grisham...So I was kind of take aback by his kindness. We all came back here. FFXI still had 2 hours left to DL onto my computer. I felt very sick to my stomach. Haley, Brad, and I were in the floor watching Ed, Edd, and Eddie. And I got up went to the bathroom and blew chunks right when I saw the cat litter. It was about three then and I was semi tired so I decided to try and sleep but I was dreaming I was holding eyeballs in my hands...I fugured that Silent Hill had really gotten to me. So I was in and out of being awake and asleep and then I had to leave at 5...with no sleep. Brad stayed until I had to leave, which was very nice on his part. When I actually got to work at 7 30 in the morning I felt pretty good. As the day went on I felt shittier and shittier. My mom came in to work and looked at me and said you look so tired get some sleep. Luckily my boss Trey gave me a three hour break. Caroline was being very livid with me which made me pretty upset b/c I don't want to lose her as a friend. But I talked to her no matter what. No matter how many times she tried to cut me off. And the day before that my aunt had called me and asked if I wanted to tlak to her and I said yes but she said she didn't want to talk to me. I was really hurt by that. So my the end of the night she was less livid and by the next day she was totally happy with me again. I figured she had to work things out for herself. Her family is going through a lot right now. I was leaving her to her shift SUnday and she looked at me and asked if i would stay there with her for a little longer b/c it wasn't even dark yet. I couldn't say no. Then I went to visit my mom at work. She was just getting the two elderly people to sit for dinner. She was very nervous about starting school. She's gonna become a medical assistant and I'm ver proud of her, and she said she is dong it b/c of me. She said that I made her want to go back to school and she made me promise her that I would make something of myself b/c she regretted that she hadn't done so earlier in her life. For some reason when I left out for macon I was so peaceful. I didn't seem to care that the person in front of me was only going 70. I mean I noticed a lot of things I had never seen before. And it gave me time to think and I just felt so calm and happy with the world. I wish every time I drove back could be like that. I watched fight club last night. It was my first time. Good movie, very trippy...I loved it. So here I am sleepy again a guy just woke me up knocking on the door. I didn't answer b/c haley isn't here and I'm alone. Could have been the delivery guy with my shoes. I wasn't taking any chances.