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I drank half a bottle of Absolut vodka last night. I had called Caroline earlier that day and I was crying to her and then I called her back and told her I was drinking vodka and I poured another shot and took it. I still didn't drink myself down as much as Aaron did when we were in atlanta. I got up and wanted more shots and but I couldn't b/c Haley said I had already finished off the bottle. I think I was trying to drink away some misery I had. And I cried. I cried for and hour and a half. I called my brother too. I wanted my brother last night b/c he always knows what to do when I'm crying. All sharp objects had to be taken away from me. I haven't cried like that ina a long time. And haley and brad and jason were there listening to me scream it's not fair it's not fair, patting my face with wet cloths. I feel really weak now. I talked to my brother this morning. I'm really glad he called me before he went to school. I'm just really thankful for haley. She held me and told me not to cry anymore and that she couldn't stand seeing me like that...Thanks Haley I really do love you like you were my sister.