It's been a year to the day since my mom died.

I'm trying to cope; people say things like 'I'm doing as well as expected, I guess' or 'I'm holding up' and all those little half-lies to make the asker feel better.  I mean, if I said 'I'm feeling wretched and I keep having to fight tears and I have a really stupid depressing song stuck in my head and ( Read more... )

I haz a bluetooth.

Yeah, yeah, I know, I'm last place in the technology race and all that, shut up. I finally got one, okay? And I admit, I'm kind of impressed; I could hear my brother Bill pretty clearly, even on his crappy phone with the crappy Florida reception that he has to go out onto his balcony to get to work at ALL.  ^_^  I got a decent mid ( Read more... )

Today my mom would've been 84.  I've been dreading today now for some time, fully aware of just how stupidly capable I am of moping my way through a landmark like this in a cloud of depression.  But you know, I think I kind of worked it out in my sleep last night; I woke up thinking about the whole thing, and... this is my mom's birthday, not the ( Read more... )

 Found out this morning that my older brother Bill wrecked his Harley last night.  He's in the hospital in Panama City with a shattered knee, damaged hip, tons of abrasions/lacerations/bruises and a cracked bone above the knee.  They did surgery immediately upon his arrival and saved the leg, but his knee's toast; he'll be in there for the long ( Read more... )

 Happy Independence Day, all!

Am still in NYC; have just come back from watching the Macey's fireworks display over the Hudson River with nightengale .  It was MAGNIFICENT, and I have pics and footage to post later on (I left my phone cable at home.)  It's been one hell of a visit-- so much has happened, I don't know where to start; best way, though, will be ( Read more... )

 Happy Father's Day, Daddy.  Wherever you are, whatever you're doing, I hope it's good and that you're happy.  I miss you.

All my love to you............ your daughter

 Haven't done a 'State of the Ysabet' post in a while, so I figured hey, it's as good a way of delaying cleaning the ferret-room as anything else, sooooo....

Hmm.  Been lots of things going on with me, I guess--

( STUFF! AND MORE STUFF! AND YET MORE STUFF! )

 Well, I'm back, and life's settling back down into what passes for normal, I guess.  Figured I'd write one more 'State of the Ysabet' kind of thing before I forget the details.

First off and foremost, if I haven't thanked y'all for your hugs, words of comfort and kindness, please consider yourselves thanked; believe me, it truly helped to see the ( Read more... )

 Dear Self:  Next time you're scheduled to be part of a will-reading, have sedatives/alcohol handy for afterwards.  Love, Me.

No, it wasn't that bad (or that good; I'm not a surprise! millionaire or anything), it was just very... weird.  And we had to go through my mom's jewelry and sort out who got what, and I ended up with things I *know* I'll ( Read more... )

 Well.  Last night was the viewing, and today was the funeral.  All done with, finally.  I think my mom would've been well satisfied with how it went; there were a lot of people there at both events and the flowers were really beautiful.  I asked that there be yellow roses in my mom's casket-flowers, and at the end of the funeral each of us four ( Read more... )