I look at my things. Not one thing I own is appealing. I look at my body. Not one inch of me is attractive. I look at my personality. Not one bit of me is remotely decent. I have these thoughts and they destroy me. Hopefully one day i will be something somebody can look at and say that man is a good man. Another sleepless night in my life. ( Read more... )

You have no idea what you have done to me. You have come into my life and fucked me up more then you can imagine and yet I think I still can't say leave me alone and mean it. You have done nothing but put me behind your friends. You have done nothing but hate me for being me and tell me that you can't stand me. You have never simply just hug me ( Read more... )

So it's too late. I at least tried. I waited because he needs his time and need's space to think and then when he is ready he would have let me know. This time not so much. He decided to go home for the summer. He decided that it's the best thing to do. Ok....whatever, not that big of a deal. Now here is the big deal...he is confused and ( Read more... )

His name is Matt. He is about 6'2, really skinny, smooth. He is adorable with soft lips and amazing eyes. Physically attractive, wanted by many but for some reason he wants me. It's like i'm dating john all over again tho. Not because of him but because of me. I'm worth nothing. I'm not somebody people want to be with, just something that ( Read more... )

Hello live journal. Oh how i have missed you. I have much to catch you up with. I think that first I must start with that recently I just got out of a relationship that wasn't that great. My ex boyfriend i guess really cared about me and i just ended it with no care for his feelings, however now that it's over i miss it, but i don't miss him. I ( Read more... )

i went out last night and heard something rather amusing and i liked it

if my grass was emo it would cut itself

Is everything i have come to know about my friendships with people really not the truth. Do they all lie pretending to really consider me a friend or someone that they have around when they have nothing to do, or do they let me come around because they feel bad and won't tell me how they really feel? Do they pretend to know who i am or just don't ( Read more... )

is life anything but a waste of time? What is it that we are pushed to work for? Self love, money, fame, love, happiness, all the feelings that the mind can create...i mean all that is going to happen in the end is death. So many complicated feelings that need to be understood and to learn from but once you learn them then what do you do?

where have the fun times gone? I find it funny that some people's lives are so outrages and others are just lame. I have to wonder is it really what you make it....i for some reason think not!

where does one begin to try and figure out what the are really wanting in life. I've decided that i do want to settle down, however, there is a fear that i can't explain well in words festering inside of me. I see so many beautiful people and i want to know them all and time is not that common in my world right now. Routine has taken a strong ( Read more... )