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There is a reason for the title of this entry, and while my explanation of events, thoughts and feelings may be convuluded bare with me ( Read more... )

I feel like a giant fucking failure. We're behind on bills. I feel like I can't get a job.

Well it's not true, I can 'get' a job. But it won't cover my expenses, it won't be based upon my skill sets or take my education into account. So I'm seriously in a murky depth of despair.

I had the beginnings of bronchitis last week, which I didn't go to the ( Read more... )

Recently, I feel like my brain and emotions are in one of those science fiction movies with lasers that bounce off of everything, and split and come back at you in like twelve different directions ( Read more... )

There's a lot going on, in my life and a lot of garbage circulating in my head. And as I mull over and debate posting about it. I realize if I don't share some of it will just manifest itself further and make me crazier, and while some of I'm not eager to share I have to at least put out there into the universe some of my fear ( Read more... )

THe long and short of it, we're not going. I wish so much we are. but I had to be an adult and say 'none of us feel well and to stress all week isn't conducive ( Read more... )

Don't get me wrong I'm content in my life overall, and do not regret my decisions and course of action one bit ( Read more... )

There are a couple  things recently going on with my dad's gf.

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On xmas we went over to Shari's house for a few hours, just to  get together. WHile we were there it occured to me, that my dad and her kids are referring to her as Nikki's grandma. Which was really weird.

Later that nite I found myself crying about it. I don't begrudge her being ( Read more... )