Hey Everybody (that cool voice from the simpsons..i have know idea who says it ( Read more... )

things seem to be looking up for me....a great night...a great sleep..a great..afternoon lol so far so good

So talk about irony...i was sitting at home early in the evening...feeling like i didnt have that many friends anymore..like no one really cared about me anymore. I mean i know serena and mel and dill but other than that, i just felt really alone... so i put this away message up ( Read more... )

WEll... I havent written in a good while. THere have been some crazy things going on. Lets see where to start.... OHH YES ( Read more... )

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Remember Rio and get down ( Read more... )

Sorry i havent written lately..things have been interesting... I decided i love emailing people..its fun and yeah i dont know. Ive been emailing mel lately making sure she knows people care that she is gone and its really nice to have that vent every day..with the confidence that only one person will read it ( Read more... )

thank you all for the words..and caring....im not going to kill myself or cut myself..the reason i wrote these things down..is because i wanted to and that scared me..writting them down help me get the ideas out of my system... i wouldnt do it to myself..i couldnt...true i have "stopped wearing my seat belt" but i know how much pain i would cause ( Read more... )

sooo...i stopped wearing my seatbelt...i used to be super anal about wearing my seatbelt and everyone i know wearing their seatbelt because i feared the whole death thing..it seems that now i seek it out ( Read more... )