I looked in the mirror today. I think it was the first time I really noticed a change in my body.  Not to say I haven't noticed a significant change already because that's obvious but I don't know.  It was as if I had looked in the mirror for the first time.  I suppose it sort of makes sense.  I was avoiding mirrors quite often in the past month ( Read more... )

I have a story to tell. This is not a personal journal, this is an art journal, but it was such a significant experience in my life at the moment, I had to share.

I walked to the park by myself today. I brought a book I recently bought called, "Creative License: Giving Yourself Permission To Be The Artist You Are". It's one of the most brilliant and ( Read more... )

"I feel so fucking dumb.  Sad & dumb."

When I logged onto Livejournal, that was my last saved draft for a post.  It was too sincere a statement(s) to just forget about.  But I just want to say that I don't feel that way anymore.

I don't feel that way at all.

I leave for Switzerland for my 3rd term teaching, as well as visiting Spain, Morocco (which ( Read more... )

I feel like I'll just never be good enough. And I don't know what to do with that knowledge in the grand scheme of things.

What do I do?

I've been super happy these past few weeks.  Why?  Because I have just been Jenn.  I've been within my own skin/head and accepting what I can and cannot change. I'm determined, content, and incredibly optimistic ( Read more... )

...life remains stagnant.

No change.

I will not post another entry until the above is achieved.  And when it is... I will be back to tell the world how life has done a 180.

Till then-

Wish me luck & stay outta trouble, World.

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I had a conversation yesterday dealing with happiness.  I had a conversation the day before that dealt with happiness.

"I don't think I can ever be happy."

"Happiness is very attainable.  You have to make your own."

"It's too far fetched to wish for happiness."

I told Michael that I loved him yesterday.  I told him I didn't expect to hear it back & ( Read more... )

  So, Michael & I decided to keep things going.  Our 6 month was on the 1st of October & to celebrate, he took the train & headed out my way to meet the fam & spend some time with me.  It was a planned visit of 3 days.  It ended up being 2 weeks.  It was an interesting time, to say the very least.  Among Michael being there, I had other friends ( Read more... )

I feel like I have so much to say and yet, nothing at all worth noting, at the same time ( Read more... )