A month back K said to me, 'I've never known anyone to take so little pleasure in pleasure.' Meaning, I wasn't up for sex ( Read more... )

I don't want to be awake ( Read more... )

Very long rant to follow...( Read more... )

( Arm: )

Dear Unhappy Left Arm,

Have you any idea how pissed off
and how monumentally dumb I will feel
if you fall off - or kill me?
Please don't. I really couldn't stand the embarrassment.
Also if you could fix yourself by tomorrow noon,
that would make my father's day less vexing.
Cheers,
Salt and elevation,
Corvid.
x

...At the edge of the future and my dreams all fade away
And burn my shadow away...
And burn my shadow away..."I went out this eve, happily storming to this song, dressed in biker leathers and tight jeans and (I'm informed) rocking the Blondie goth biker chick look quite nicely thank you ( Read more... )

...when I'm in 1870s Arizona ( Read more... )

People have asked at different points why I'm as I am, and most importantly why I seek to harm or destroy myself in various ways on a semi-regular basis despite the fact that a lot of the time I don't actually want to be dead; it just ends up a lesser of two evils or something to do because I'm off my head for some reason, which isn't great as ( Read more... )

Years back when I was being particularly crazy I had occasional hallucinations. They were different from daydreams/imaginings in the fact that they weren't wanted, couldn't be predicted or controlled and had weird flashes of other sensory input as well as a hideous inescapable feel to them like a nightmare. I knew at the time they were ( Read more... )

And now I can not stop pacing
Give me a few hours, I’ll have all this sorted out
If my mind would just stop racing
Cuz I'm waiting for tonight
Then waiting for tomorrow
And I'm somewhere in between
What is real, and just a dream...Lj ate my last post the bastard ( Read more... )