From originally deciding to only apply to four schools and just handle where fate left me, I have decided to apply to seven schools, maybe eight, in order to almost guarantee I will be out of Birmingham by mid to late summer. The only thing though, is the amount of things that need to be finished in order to do so. Of the seven schools, four have ( Read more... )

im in the studio starring at a blank canvas, hoping some sot of inspiration i will come to me. but unfortunately, all i can think about is not being able to go to the school i wish to attend if i don't come up with $80,000 in some form or fashion by the end of the spring. it's some sort of depression, some sort of anxiety, not to be able to do what ( Read more... )

this week, though full with both manic lows and great highs, has been pretty great. great in terms of intensity considerably above the normal of course ( Read more... )

since that awful night i have carried this overwhelming guilt with me. that night i broke his and my own heart by becoming drunk and being the worst of this person i am. to be perfectly honest, i don't remember much of that night at all, but it was the beginning of my downfall, mentally and emotionally. it is only now i am really beginning to ( Read more... )

right now life is weighted with stress and controversy. so i'm dropping those that seem to only adding stress without long term promise. artwalk is one that i cannot let go, nor is my job. i cannot release school nor financial obligations. i cannot let go of my newly obtained internship at studio one eleven either. there is one thing, however, that ( Read more... )

i'm leaving, disconnecting myself ( Read more... )

I baught an organ yesterday ( Read more... )

. . . .but even so, after three amazing months of good friends, experiences, and clean time; i still feel like i have been immediately thrown away to ground zero with no one to help me back to my feet.

"Cocaine flame in my bloodstream ( Read more... )

whiskey ( Read more... )