My mother went to the ER this morning around 6:00 AM because her heart started racing and wouldn't stop. She'd had an episode like this a few years ago that also landed her in the ER. They couldn't find a problem but gave her some pills to take anyway. Years went by without another major incident, so my mother stopped taking the pills. She'd get a ( Read more... )

Socks' test results just came back. The doctor says it looks like a tumor, possibly in or around his liver. He said we could pursue further tests if we wanted to, but it was unlikely that anything we found could be remedied. Even if he could locate the tumor and operate, Socks' age already puts him at advanced risk. For such an expensive surgery, ( Read more... )

I think Socks' time is getting close. He's been getting thinner and thinner, and lately he won't eat much. Today I offered him a treat and he wouldn't take it. He's hardly drinking. Since this morning, he's spit up foam twice. I've seen him do this thing where he crouches down as his insides spasm a couple of times, like he's trying to brace ( Read more... )

So now that I'm doing less of that "ignoring life" thing I feel better. It was great talking to you guys over the past week; ideally I could have all of you with me, but since that can't happen I'm happy to settle for your phone calls ( Read more... )

I apologize for essentially ignoring everyone for the past two weeks. Stuff is just not good in a lot of ways, and I've been trying to hide myself from the world ( Read more... )

Yeah, I'm home. I'm overwhelmed and overemotional. I'm definitely going to need a while to chill out, but that certainly doesn't mean I don't want to hear from all of you-- unless of course you have bad things to say to me, in which case shut up and fuck you ( Read more... )

Lately I've been following Ray Comfort's blog. For those of you who don't know, Comfort is a Christian apologist, the man behind the popular Way of the Master series and a friend of Kirk Cameron, who shares the spotlight on his ministry's TV show ( Read more... )

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I spent a lot of last night thinking. Even while I slept, I was still thinking. I can tell by how jittery I felt when I got up this morning. Usually sleep helps wipe my mental slate clean. I'm not panicked or anything -- just thinking ( Read more... )

Today was a great first day. I like all the people I'm working with and I got a good group of kids. I have the older ones in the morning (a first) and the younger ones in the afternoon. Because of our new schedule and reduced number of pool days, I end up having my morning class for about four hours and the afternoon one for only two. I wish the ( Read more... )