I have just finished reading The Chemistry Of Tears by Peter Carey. WOW!!! Beautiful. Thank you Peter Carey ...wow!

(From the last page and the final two paragraphs):

"I am not certain of very much at all, only that our essence is wrapped by the largest sensory organ, a universe itself, our human skin.... Our skin contains four million receptors. ( Read more... )

People around me are constantly commenting on my face and it's day to day changes. I'm so close to it that I don't know that I can see it... though sometimes...

Sometimes.

Sometimes I can see changes
Sometimes I see nothing
Sometimes it seems dead
Like a tree in winter
And everything is sometimes bleaker.

Then more than sometimes
In fact all the times
I ( Read more... )

I Just wanted to add a little more here...

I've been posting a lot on twitter, LiveJournal and daily photos on Facebook about my entire FFS experience. But beyond all that, I found the Chicago Dr Z trip very invigorating... The US trans women carry a real attitude of "We are women too and we have as much a right to place at the table as anyone else ( Read more... )

A friend of mine, Yvonne, commented on a pic of mine from my "3 weeks post op" album on Facebook uploaded this evening (or last night, depending on how you view these things ( Read more... )

Yesterday was in the end a good day. Very emotional and busy.

In fact, this whole FFS experience is becoming one of the most emotional experiences of my life. And coming against some very, very strong competition.

Maybe that's the wrong way to put it. It's joining the list of intensely emotional life experiences I am accumulating.

Rina (pronounced " ( Read more... )

Generally speaking I feel fairly uncomfortable. But now on day 3 it's getting better. The meds and valium help a lot but not 100%! Ha ha!

I have been posting photos on my Facebook page.

I realise I am handling this in a completely different way to the way I have seen other people go through this before. And yet this is what feels right for me.

All my ( Read more... )

I've been meaning to type an entry for days.

I've started using Twitter now and cross-posting so that's covering various small items that I write about on a daily basis but LiveJournal still has a very important role as far as I'm concerned in allowing me to document my thoughts.

In a few hours time Emma and I go to Heathrow to fly out to Chicago and ( Read more... )

Thursday we had a mad, wonderful adventure. After Ellie left in the morning to go to Reading fesival we got in the car and drove to Yorkshire Sculpture Park in heavy rain to collect our framed David Nash picture. It's stunning.

We got to YSP 10 minutes before the shop closed (it took almost 5 hours). But we did have a walk around one of tge ( Read more... )

I have recently returned home from visiting my GP (note: whilst there are four doctors at my surgery, there are two I see who are familiar with my circumstances and both are fantastically supportive) yesterday afternoon and she was wonderfully understanding and supportive. I was actually "in" with her for 35 minutes ( Read more... )

I am concerned that I may be suffering from chemically induced depression.

I have now been on eostrogen patches for 11 months and for 5.5 months on an anti-androgen injection. The next 3 monthly injection is due on 24th Aug.
For the life of me at this moment I can't recall the drug's name but it's not one that I've seen referred to by anyone else.

The ( Read more... )