This week I've been fielding phone calls and emails about my FFS.  Actually it's something that has been happening from the start as I have been very public about my surgery, I don't think it was going to be possible not to be as everyone that knows me was able to see that it had happened.

Based on various questions I am asked over the phone or via ( Read more... )

The FFS was an "endurance trauma" (especially that massage) and there is a tiny part of me that still resents that I had to go through FFS - in every way - but it's good. To see and be aware of my masculinasized features was driving me around the bend and as I have said it has revolutionised my life not to mention Emma's and whoever is close to me.

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It most certainly takes a while for the swelling to go down and facial movement to return - months actually I'm glad I took all the photos I did to be able to look back and see the difference. I also remember my dentist about 6 weeks post surgery commenting that in order to give me a clean he would need me to be able to open my mouth wide enough ( Read more... )

Woke up at 3am! No great shakes but now here I am fiddling with my iPhone playing backgammon, exploring the net and posting! Go back to sleep!
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Ok, so I'm still here. Last night I spoke to Dr Zukowski to discuss progress on my face surgery. He feels I am doing really well.

His instructions were that:

•I massage my face for 30 minutes once a day ( ( Read more... )

Im still laying in bed and I've just been reading Tasha's blog on my iPhone (as you do!) and found myself getting a little irritated, which is really poor on my part - Who am I to dictate what someone else writes about in their blog?!

Her post (voice #5) was interesting to read but what I miss is the personal element of how what she has written ( Read more... )

Ok, so I've not written anything meaningful in my journal for ages but I suppose the important thing is that I have come back and I'm here. This is more of a test post to make sure that I can write?!

And I want to see if some of the bugs that were bothering me in this iPhone mobile app have been fixed too?

The last week has been filled with a lot of ( Read more... )

People around me are constantly commenting on my face and it's day to day changes. I'm so close to it that I don't know that I can see it... though sometimes...

Sometimes.

Sometimes I can see changes
Sometimes I see nothing
Sometimes it seems dead
Like a tree in winter
And everything is sometimes bleaker.

Then more than sometimes
In fact all the times
I ( Read more... )

Ok finally went to sleep about 12.45 ish, it was before 1am. I know that and I've woken up soaked in perspiration at 6.10

Considering my sleep pattern of the last few days, I record that as an improvement.

Face feels incredibly sore and I can only imagine that's the massaging. At this moment I'm dreading having to go at my face again. Really need to ( Read more... )

Ah, too early to wake up again! It's 3.40am.
Why don't I just go back to sleep? My eyes feel tender and my face and neck generally sore. This facial garment is so uncomfortable.


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 First new photos in a few days ( Read more... )