green

you wore many colours but you always looked best in green -
green, like the cool Bosphorus emeralds that breathe with the wind
or Hyde Park slipping into that effortless gown of spring,
like the old printing museum you liked, draped in those hungry furs of lichen,
or pandan, like my childhood home, its smell wrapped around me with rattan ( Read more... )

i will hoard my heart like a dragon and you will not be its thief ( Read more... )

There is an inordinate but justified amount of emphasis on having a dream in life. Teachers, parents and educators, in general, join in a chorus of “follow your dreams, young man”and sagely push you on to supposedly greater things. They make one false assumption. They take it for granted that people have dreams, or at least significant dreams. Not ( Read more... )

i caress her face while she sleeps. i think it a little weird  but she looks so much like a doe. something fragile and waiting to break. i wonder whether i can fit a heart in there, whether its safe to fit a heart in there. i dont know. love doesnt grow on you, does it? but its like a dry seed in my chest, dormant for so many years. its stem ( Read more... )

into a YAWNING chasm, my previous eight to nine months have disappeared. i feel LIKE YARN. in his blog post. almost exactly. but now, or at least two months ago... i got my life back. it was delivered abruptly... shoved back in a way. but ALWAYS waiting to happen. it is a life as free as i was in junior college and it is even.... something more..  ( Read more... )

a great deal has happened since the last time ive blogged.. i decided to get up from my ass and apply for at least ONE university, got my hard earned pair of black kitkat bars, ive read more books... some which have touched me. ive watched i think countless of movies..some bad some good some uplifting... ive turned 20.. sounds old. i know.. thought ( Read more... )

and SO! it is FINALLY FINALLY OVER. a hurdle has been crossed..a sea quelled... a mountain trekked...etc etc etc! FINALLY! im sure everyone must know so i should not mention in case of it being like..top secret or something... but i dont think so but ANYWAY. FINALLY.
i think one of the best rewards is that i'll never have to march again.. utility ( Read more... )

ive tried blogging twice. but kinda didnt manage to blog. anyway, i dunno. i have lost some heart in blogging. seems like no one is blogging. no one is around. sort of. even on facebook. all kinda disappeared into their corners of the world. (literally and metaphorically, of course). but well! i will SURGE ON in this GLORIOUS BATTLE AGAINST SILENCE ( Read more... )

been reading.. quite a bit. a LARGE assortment of books that i got from borders after a 30 percent discount.. the catcher in the rye was not as groundbreaking as i thought.in fact, the ending was damn anti-climatic. shrug. do androids dream of electric sheep? was okay i guess.. but i think the androids-are-they-REALLY-human?!-thingus was just kinda ( Read more... )

people are leaving. and when this happens.. final confirmations are needed. these confirmations of friendship. that they will always be there.. that no matter how one's character changes, the so called "core" of someone remains. trust must be placed that both of you will still be able to talk when you have nothing else in common. trust must be ( Read more... )