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a great deal has happened since the last time ive blogged.. i decided to get up from my ass and apply for at least ONE university, got my hard earned pair of black kitkat bars, ive read more books... some which have touched me. ive watched i think countless of movies..some bad some good some uplifting... ive turned 20.. sounds old. i know.. thought more than ive thought in my life... and stayed still.
as compared to my old school life. im like riding on a tortoise. time passes and nothing happens.. sometimes i forget what i did the previous week. everythings just lost in the flurry of utilising time. i used to value my weekends like mad in ocs and bmt. they were what drove me on. id pick what i do and JAMPACK them with things to do, people to meet. ive forgotten those weekends in my hurry to not "waste time"... but i guess there was no other way huh.. so yeah. for those in the army now. grit your teeth, the worst will be over. soon. or not. hahahha.
well about a year and a month has passed since i entered the army.. used to think how i'd get through every single day. but i dont now, i go through each day with a semblance of purpose. of importance. the army has taught me one thing about myself... i cannot be aimless. i cannot have no goal... some people might think army is quite the waste of time... i dont know that for sure because ive found an aim at least. to be a decent commander and a decent friend. i guess when you can affect someone's life.. your own actions and your conduct...well they become much more important. i think i will stay the same as i was.. all these years, the same me. and of course, lose the selfishness. lose the self-importance. and keep my confidence. keep the humour. no matter how retarded it can get...(: and keep the faith, in this year of transitions, that i am meant for something great.