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My life is brilliant.... my love is pure.

Sep 10, 2005 18:12

I was tired of being afraid. That I had decided matter of factly. I just didn't know what to do about it because every time I did try to do something about it I wound up playing psycho fun house with Faith. What used to be Faith and maybe this was karmic retribution for the hell I put her through in high school, who knows. Why would she fixate on ( Read more... )

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true_angelus September 10 2005, 22:48:23 UTC

Well fuck, could it get any damn easier? I had left the kids with Merrick to go and find Cordelia and here she is in my arms asking for my help. Of course I'd help her, help drag her back to the house to watch the kids. Play Mommy and she would once I convinced her enough but for right now I wouldn't alarm her to the fact I was not her hero. I wrapped my arms around her and smoothed her hair down hushing her quietly ( ... )

divinecordelia September 10 2005, 23:00:56 UTC

Idiot. Idiot. Idiot. Fucking stupid idiot. I swallowed back tears as Angelus steered me into the house where two kids waited for me to play Mommy. How messed up was this? Part of me was wishing Faith was here now and filling me full of drugs because at least it wasn't Angelus. I saw a small blonde walk out and scowl at Angelus and walk away. Angelus stared after her and then turned to me as we reached a door. Play Mommy was all he said as he pushed the door open. I stood there reluctantly and his hands fisted into balls and that was enough to propel me through the door into the view of two kids. A girl and a boy ( ... )

john_allerdyce September 10 2005, 23:16:02 UTC

Faith and I waited for Daddy to return with Mommy. I wasn't sure why I was confused that we had a Mommy. I thought my mommy was dead, but then again I could remember having a Mommy, but I don't think she was with my Daddy. It was with another Daddy. No. That couldn't be right. Why was I so confused ( ... )

wickedslayer September 12 2005, 07:10:57 UTC

The hissy girl wouldn't let me go, always holding onto me and calling me a Star. I was a star! I should get sunglasses and run around and play hide and go seek. But Connor said we might get in trouble for that. I didn't care as long as he took all the blame for it because he would and Daddy would believe it too.

I smile at that.

Pretty girl walks in and I don't think she's our Mommy at all but Connor thinks she is. Boys are so dumb. Wicked dumb. I'd tell him that later too as soon as all the grown ups go away and I can tease him again. I just watch and she looks confused to see me. Everybody's always so confused. I don't care, as long as cartoons are on.

"Don't cry, you baby!" I yell at Connor, throwing a pillow and hitting him in the back of the head with it. Big kids don't cry. My big brother's not supposed to cry because he's a boy but I don't cry either. Only when I have to get out of trouble. Then I cry alot. But that's okay because it gets me out of trouble. Connor's just crying because he's a big baby.

divinecordelia September 12 2005, 13:19:22 UTC

I stood there just staring in disbelief as the little blonde girl swung my arm happily and stared up at me with a totally insane grin. Was she happy to be tormenting me? Her hands were ice cold so I figured that she was pretty much a vampire, no doubt turned by Angelus. I pulled my hand loose and looked down at Connor who was asking if I remembered him and Faith, did that make me a bad Mommy? What the- no, I am not their Mother. I turned and looked at the door and seriously thought about running out of it and taking my chances of dying because this whole babysit your vampire Faith in a kids body? Seriously wigging me out. At least she wasn't big Faith and it didn't seem like she was a vampire ( ... )

john_allerdyce September 12 2005, 18:22:12 UTC

I listened as the pretty woman explained that she wasn't our Mommy. She told us secrets about the people who lived in this house and how Daddy was a very bad man. Suddenly I was hit with a clear memory of a very hot place with yucky air that burned when you inhaled it. Of a man who talked with a soft gravel hard voice and an accent.

I could remember him telling me that I was spawn from evil. The stories of my real mommy and daddy and the horrible things they did to the man I called Father's family. "Cling to the good and lay waste to the evil, Stephen. You're a good boy. God gave you to me. Fight the evil inside you. You can do it my son."I backed away from the woman and Faith, my mind reeling with the memory as I looked around the room trying to figure out how I could have this clear memory of a place that had been home when I was this room that was supposed to be home too. I only stopped backing up when my back connected with the wall. I slid down slowly, wrapping my arms around my knees as I stared at Faith and the woman with tear ( ... )

angels_bitch September 13 2005, 19:11:59 UTC

I frown because the pretty girl makes my big brother cry even more. Now he's crying and I wanna throw another pillow at him and tell him to shut up but the grown up is still here. I don't like her. She's mean and she's not my Mommy. I don't think I have a mommy but if I did? She'd be prettier than this one who makes Connor cry.

"Shut up, Connor!" I yell at him loudly, bounding off of the bed and walking up to the pretty girl. I stare up at her with an angry scowl at my face. She doesn't know what do, she's still confused so I kick her in the shin. She yells ow and gives me an angry look. Good! Pretty girls aren't supposed to make Connor cry.

"I don't like you." I announce loudly, still glaring up at her. "Your hair is stupid. And you're not my Mommy."

Where was the hissy girl? She likes me, so maybe if I told her to hiss at the fake Mommy she would. She could scare her away and then it would just be me and Connor. Then Connor would stop crying or else I'd hit him with a pillow until he shut up.

divinecordelia September 15 2005, 13:49:59 UTC

I watched as Connor sunk down to the floor after spouting off what he'd learned back in that Hell dimension Wes sent him off to once upon a time. He was little though, how would he remember that? I just looked at him confused when I felt a sharp kick to my shin. I glanced down at little Faith as she announced she didn't like me and I had stupid hair. Only thing that really stuck out in my mind was the fact she said I was not her Mommy.

"Damn straight you little psychotic- vampire turned kid again!" I snapped out and gripped her by the arm hard and steered her over to the bed and plopped her little butt down. "You are right I am not your Mommy and thank God for small favors. I am not anyone's Mommy at all! You two stay here and Angelus is going to kill you both. I'm sure he has a special eye on you Faith considering you were his bitch like two days ago. And as far as I'm concerned I hope you stay a little baby because that means you won't come after me ever again ( ... )

john_allerdyce September 16 2005, 00:34:15 UTC

There was screaming and kicking and it was making my head hurt. The tears stopped just as Cordelia announced she was glad she wasn't our mommy. She said mean things to Faith and that made me mad. No one got to talk to my little sister that way ( ... )

wickedslayer September 16 2005, 00:48:15 UTC

The mean lady wasn't pretty anymore at all. She was mostly just mean. Pushing me onto the bed and telling me that Daddy was gonna come back and kill me. If she wasn't being so silly I'd probably cry now to get out of trouble. I smile as Connor grabs her arm and pulls her back to the bed. Yeah. She should say she's sorry, that wasn't very nice to say to me. It's not my fault she has stupid hair and made my brother cry like a big baby.

Connor says we can tie her up and lock her in the closet for Daddy to find. Oh, he's gonna be so mad! Because by then we would be gone and even if he was mad at us I'll just blame it on Connor. It's totally his idea! And I know he'll always take the blame for me.

"Okay." I say with a shrug. Waiting for big brother to push her into the closet. He's wicked strong and that's why he's always breaking stuff. I don't know why I break stuff, I just do sometimes cause I like to look at lots of different things. And then I drop them.

divinecordelia September 16 2005, 01:01:08 UTC

I looked at Connor shocked and horrified as he all but shoved me onto the bed beside the little monster that started this all. Apologize? I don't fucking think so and I was about to say that when he suggested tying me up and leaving me in the closet and she agreed. Agreed! She's evil even in human form! I looked at Connor and wondered why he was so protective of her, she wasn't even his sister. That was the key to getting him to cool his little jets. My arm wrapped around Faith and I jerked her into my arms, standing up from the bed as she kicked and flailed about ( ... )

john_allerdyce September 16 2005, 01:23:04 UTC

"Let her go." I growled as the mean lady grabbed my little sister and threatened to her hurt her. She was making a big mistake because I may be small, but I could hurt her if she didn't let Faith go ( ... )

wickedslayer September 16 2005, 02:52:21 UTC

I squirm and twist in the mean lady's arms but she just holds on tighter. Hard to breathe. I'm shooting wild looks at Connor and Merrick and they look scared too. Well, Connor looks scared. Merrick just looks creepy like she always does. Weird hissy girl. She better save me from the mean lady or Daddy was gonna be so mad at her! But she didn't have to cause Connor pulls me out of her arms and I gasp in a big breath. That hurt. Now it hurt to breathe. I want to kick her again but Connor pushes me behind him ( ... )

divinecordelia September 16 2005, 17:03:16 UTC

I lay there on the ground trying to catch my breath from being shoved through a door by Connor. His fist lashed angrily down on my face and I swore I saw stars. Great now he's protecting and defending Faith, if ever they get turned back into their grown up selves? I'm totally screwed. I'd just avoid them both is all, I could do that. I should escape while Faith is little and useless, she couldn't stop me and neither could the half pint little blonde vampire now standing over my grinning evilly ( ... )

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