...it's hard to suddenly find yourself alone in a new fandom

edit: That's not to say I'm upset that no one's followed me into the fandom... I mean, I don't expect people to just jump on board with me...just... you know?

could someone please tell my Simon muse to stop being angsty and difficult? And please to also tell John muse the same. **pulls hair out & strangles them with it**

to never speak up for myself and just blindly trust that everyone around me knows everything and I'm just a dumb mutt girl who can't ever know anything because she's not white, not black, not of any one race, and doesn't see hidden agendas in the evil media when everything is apparently about color...I should never have listened to my parents when ( Read more... )

to everyone who offered support on my previous post. I'm...well, it's getting easier to handle, I'll say that. I'm slowly making my way through the lj backlog...but it's five pages so bear with ( Read more... )

I'm home. silent_ic_river tells me that several lovely people posted wonderful things for those of us displaced Saturday because of the strike and I thank you for that. I don't want to talk about it. I'm still crying off and on, to be honest. I'll be okay for a few minutes, and hour or three, and then it will hit me again. Ruining all my chances to visit my ( Read more... )

or I'll choke on my own vitriol...sorry if it splashes on you

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See, in the back of my brain I always knew it was true, but...danged if I didn't cry when I listened to John and Simon's interview with Kidd Kraddick when John talked about how weird and wrong it would be to date a fan. Yes, I know it's stupid to even care because even if I was 70 pounds thinner and had no physical flaws, I'd still be...well, *me ( Read more... )

I pulled an @$$ muscle playing baseball on my friend's Wii today

tell me you love me, tell me why...I hurt and I need the reassurances...please?

to San Fran...no one told me that evil sister would be joining us and I got it sprung on me after the fact...I *told* my mother that didn't want any surprises or anything sprung on me. I can't decide if they just fogot to tell me, or neglected to, knowing I wouldnt come if they did