thank you
to everyone who offered support on my previous post. I'm...well, it's getting easier to handle, I'll say that. I'm slowly making my way through the lj backlog...but it's five pages so bear with...
also, apparently, after we were there and the strikers were nasty to us something changed. I spoke to some girls Saturday night who said they'd been by about noonish and the strikers couldn't have been sweeter, comiserating with them and things...was it because rhodesy and silent_ic_river had to lead me away in tears? or did silent_ic_river's email to Katy have more of an effect than we were aware of? we'll never know. I'm glad (I swear) that those who could stay longer have the option of a new venue. And the ticket money back was nice...but the show ticket price was less than half of what I (and many others) spent on that trip...am I selfish for being upset of the other money, time, and tears lost? I went through all sorts of wringers to get ready for this show and had at least two bona fide meltdowns...but it was all worth it because I was going to this rare once-in-a-lifetime show...that didn't happen. My mom keeps giving me reasons why not to be upset but honestly? that only hurts more because I can't STOP hurting over this and she's only compounding it with guilt.
in insult-to-injury news, mother may not be able to go to San Fran for Christmas either because the dog has torn a ligament in her knee that requires surgery with an estimated cost of just under two thousand dollars
I want to be cheered up, HONEST...but more often than not an effort at cheering only causes me to burst into tears again *sigh*
also, apparently, after we were there and the strikers were nasty to us something changed. I spoke to some girls Saturday night who said they'd been by about noonish and the strikers couldn't have been sweeter, comiserating with them and things...was it because rhodesy and silent_ic_river had to lead me away in tears? or did silent_ic_river's email to Katy have more of an effect than we were aware of? we'll never know. I'm glad (I swear) that those who could stay longer have the option of a new venue. And the ticket money back was nice...but the show ticket price was less than half of what I (and many others) spent on that trip...am I selfish for being upset of the other money, time, and tears lost? I went through all sorts of wringers to get ready for this show and had at least two bona fide meltdowns...but it was all worth it because I was going to this rare once-in-a-lifetime show...that didn't happen. My mom keeps giving me reasons why not to be upset but honestly? that only hurts more because I can't STOP hurting over this and she's only compounding it with guilt.
in insult-to-injury news, mother may not be able to go to San Fran for Christmas either because the dog has torn a ligament in her knee that requires surgery with an estimated cost of just under two thousand dollars
I want to be cheered up, HONEST...but more often than not an effort at cheering only causes me to burst into tears again *sigh*