Why me? Why must I allow myself to feel emotions? Why can't I just be hardened like other people are ( Read more... )

aahh where to start. I feel, once again, like I am sinking. Don't know where to run to. Who to run to. Where to hide. I want to yell. I want to cry. I want to scream. But I don't think anyone would really care or listen if I did! I want to kick and scream and be mad at the world. But yet again, reality hits, I'm a momma, and an adult. I can't do ( Read more... )

Ug! There are sooooooo many things flying through my head and heart right now. I just sooooooooo don't want to deal with any of them. I'll just jump in head first here and away we go.

( Men, can't live with them, and you can't legally shoot their sorry asses!!! )

The color fits the mood. Blue. Down. Depressed. Lonely. All because of one man. Who can't get into his myspace to read this supposedly. I have stated before. I don't do the waiting game well. Maybe if we actually got to see each other when we try to plan on seeing each other, or talk more then every 5 days or so, I would be more at ease with all of ( Read more... )

Ever felt like happy yet still not satisfied? I can not explain it. I'm happy with not having a man. Truly I am a great place with that now. But still, can't stop wanting one certain one. But I feel he blows me off a lot. So many times I tell myself just to leave him alone and walk away. That if it's right, when he gets hiself to a place in his ( Read more... )

There is someone I want to hold so closely. To have him so close that there's nothing between us but the air we are breathing. But I can never seem to get the chance to do this. I care so much for this man, that I don't think I could ever tell him how much he means to me. This man has touched my heart in ways that I didn't know were possible. He ( Read more... )

So this is Christmas...well, atleast the holiday season. I HATE IT!!! I have not liked this holiday for a while now. I hate that everyone is all lovey dovey, and I'm alone. I hate that people act fake and try to be nice and all that good jazz. Be who you are. Never act like someone else. The fact that I have no man to play Santa to me, nor me to ( Read more... )

Have you ever been the one that had to play the waiting game? Ya know... You want to be with someone, but have to wait it out, until everything gets all worked out so you can be together. I am at a loss right now. I want to wait for this man. But I'm not sure I can. I'm already having a huge problem with waiting, and hell, he's not even said he ( Read more... )

I can't believe it!!! I just can't FUCKING believe it!!!! The one I could not have completely, killed himself on Tuesday. I'm so FUCKING ANGRY with him. This is not fair at all!! He told me he loved me on Friday, and was supposed to meet me on Saturday. But he never called like he was supposed to. I had not talked to him since Friday night. My ( Read more... )

It's one of those nights, or should I say mornings rather. It's 3:43AM, been up for 20 minutes. Sleep seeming to elude me yet again ( Read more... )