The one I want...
There is someone I want to hold so closely. To have him so close that there's nothing between us but the air we are breathing. But I can never seem to get the chance to do this. I care so much for this man, that I don't think I could ever tell him how much he means to me. This man has touched my heart in ways that I didn't know were possible. He has found hidden places within me that I had forgotten I had. But it seems that sometimes people want me to think he's playing games with me. And sometimes, it starts to work. But I have seen this man. I have kissed this man. I have felt what it felt like to be in his arms. Even though it was just a hug. It had such intense feelings to it. Least for me. I know what he tells me about how he feels. I want so bad to believe him. I just guess I need to be able to touch him, feel him, hold him to know for sure. The thing that scares me most about this man is the fact that I could see myself very happy with him. But I don't think that is what he wants. I don't think he wants happily ever after. I think he wants happy for only right now. I don't know, however. Least not for sure. I want to be in front of him, in his arms. Seeing his face and losing myself in his eyes when he tells me how he feels and what he wants. So I can see if he's being true and honest!! So then if he is, I can tell everyone else to step the hell off.