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The color fits the mood. Blue. Down. Depressed. Lonely. All because of one man. Who can't get into his myspace to read this supposedly. I have stated before. I don't do the waiting game well. Maybe if we actually got to see each other when we try to plan on seeing each other, or talk more then every 5 days or so, I would be more at ease with all of this. So I tell him how I feel about it all. And what do I get....ignored. Oh, first I was told that it's annoying to log on every few days and have like 10 offlines saying the same thing. Gee. Thanks. Love you too.
I can't call him, or see him, or touch him when I want to. He is divorced now, least he says he is. But still has to be at her damn mercy for the sake of his baby girl. I understand she comes first. As she should. But dammit......can I atleast come some where in there?
So many times I think I should just walk away. If it's meant to be like he says it is...it will be when it gets to where it can be. But what am I supposed to do in the mean time? Sit here and be miserable like I am?!?! I'm just so tired of feeling lonely and like I rate behind EVERYONE ELSE... Not just with him, or where he's concerned. But with everyone in my life. I'm on the verge of just sayin FUCK IT ALL!!!!!!!
I can't call him, or see him, or touch him when I want to. He is divorced now, least he says he is. But still has to be at her damn mercy for the sake of his baby girl. I understand she comes first. As she should. But dammit......can I atleast come some where in there?
So many times I think I should just walk away. If it's meant to be like he says it is...it will be when it gets to where it can be. But what am I supposed to do in the mean time? Sit here and be miserable like I am?!?! I'm just so tired of feeling lonely and like I rate behind EVERYONE ELSE... Not just with him, or where he's concerned. But with everyone in my life. I'm on the verge of just sayin FUCK IT ALL!!!!!!!