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the gym last night was absolute torture. i was the fat whale of the class big fat humpback whale who was tired out 15 minutes into it and who the instructor took pity on, giving her all the easy moves. looking in the mirror, my fat stomach bouncing, my stupid boobs not staying still, my face as red a tomato.

i was fucking embarrassed to be alive.

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i am a fat fuck.

ice cream. cookies and fucking cream ice cream.

what in ana's name made me buy THAT.

i am sabotaging myself.

i hate myself.

this is shit.

STOP EATING. stupid slut.

179 days to go. (so get thin!)

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this friend i have at work and i have been going to the gym together for a couple of weeks. last night at gym she suggested we start a competition. a weightloss competition ( Read more... )