friends don't do that to friends
I don't know why but I feel that all this bad energy is gravitating towards me lately. My mom and brother keep bitching at me these past few days, out of nowhere, and I just have this constant cloud of animosity hanging over my head, threatening to rain hate on me whenever someone sees fit.
I'm not like that. I don't randomly treat people like shit out of whim. If I'm going to verbally harass anyone, it's because they're driving slow, or walking on the wrong side of the road. There's always something tangible that instigates my rage. But I swear, sometimes, people are just pissy out of the blue and they leave you wondering wtf is going on in their miserable existence that made them take out their shit on YOU. I don't get it, I really don't understand the benefit in bitching at someone or screwing them over. Because really, the only person that gets hurt is the aggressor. There are far more drawbacks in exploding at someone, that I don't even have to list because it's just so damn obvious.
Why? What did I do to deserve this? I feel that I don't. I do nice things for people all the time, without them asking. I wake up and shovel the snow. I make deliveries to people. I just do nice shit all around. Because these people are my friends and family, and they are probably the most important people in my life. I'll protect them with my life and I'll give them the best I can. I don't have high expectations of them, but at the same time, I think that they are not giving me the respect that I believe I deserve.
I wish they could just stop what they're doing for two fucking seconds and think about what I mean to them.
Fuck, if my family is going against me, I can't even imagine what my friends will do.
Actually I can because they already did.
I'm not like that. I don't randomly treat people like shit out of whim. If I'm going to verbally harass anyone, it's because they're driving slow, or walking on the wrong side of the road. There's always something tangible that instigates my rage. But I swear, sometimes, people are just pissy out of the blue and they leave you wondering wtf is going on in their miserable existence that made them take out their shit on YOU. I don't get it, I really don't understand the benefit in bitching at someone or screwing them over. Because really, the only person that gets hurt is the aggressor. There are far more drawbacks in exploding at someone, that I don't even have to list because it's just so damn obvious.
Why? What did I do to deserve this? I feel that I don't. I do nice things for people all the time, without them asking. I wake up and shovel the snow. I make deliveries to people. I just do nice shit all around. Because these people are my friends and family, and they are probably the most important people in my life. I'll protect them with my life and I'll give them the best I can. I don't have high expectations of them, but at the same time, I think that they are not giving me the respect that I believe I deserve.
I wish they could just stop what they're doing for two fucking seconds and think about what I mean to them.
Fuck, if my family is going against me, I can't even imagine what my friends will do.
Actually I can because they already did.