The pain of work is finally starting to get to me. My boss gets angrier and angrier at me, and I get more and more scared. It's the vicious cycle of being yelled at, getting more scared, then getting yelled at more. This pain keeps pushing me further and further away from where I want to be, back in that huddled, metal fetal position that I've ( Read more... )

My stress levels have been spiking the past week. I'm overloaded, with school work and freelance work and an upcoming interview as well. I actually had to drop one of my projects with a new freelance firm; there's just too much going on right now. They may try and reschedule it to when I'm less busy, but I still so awful that I had to let them down ( Read more... )

I'm not sure why, but after the Birthday Brunch last Sunday I've been a completely raw nerve. Not depressed, but emotionally weak as a kitten. A single blip in the road on Monday was what made me depressed ( Read more... )

I was on my way home tonight when I had this overwhelming feeling of loneliness. It was the same feeling I got on Sunday after I came back from New York, just the overwhelming feeling of...being unloved. It scares me, like I'll never be happy ( Read more... )

Starting tomorrow it will be one week before I move out of my present apartment. It's such melancholy to leave behind a place I've had so many good times at, where I've learned and lived so much. My roommates have meant so much to me and it's a little scary to see them go ( Read more... )

In 4 months my lease is up, and over the next couple of months I need to decide if I'm going to be living where I am or going someplace else ( Read more... )

Sometimes it's just so hard for me to be at peace. I can't be happy, I obsess and worry and drive myself crazy trying to find answers to questions that I shouldn't have asked to begin with. Why do I care if Alana texted John for a late-night lift instead of me? She was probably being helpful because she knows I go to bed early on nights before work ( Read more... )

I haven't posted in a while because things were going so good. Also it's gotten very quiet on LJ lately; I think alot of my friends here have faded away, I know at least one is mostly on Facebook now ( Read more... )

It's getting harder to see the forrest for the trees anymore. That slight "unglued" feeling is afflicting me, making me a little less sensitive and aware of the world around me. I thought it was the Celexa, so I cut back. But it's just so hard to understand why I feel the way I do. Surrounding myself with people, but...feeling so insecure now. I ( Read more... )

Well, after writing my last entry I took the summer off, with no penalty. Best for all concerned because of my planned vacation this summer. Although on the plus side, with full-time work and the hunger to actually HAVE some fun, it works out for the best ( Read more... )