I woke up today with a knot in my stomach, a sick feeling and just cried.

I'm so angry, frustrated, mad, depressed, hurt, unsure.

All I need is the truth - is that really too much to ask for? And maybe some effort? To back up what he says. Am I really asking for too much?

It's not even a matter of what I want, it's what I needI'm already ( Read more... )

Pediatric Nursing

Something I definitely want to look into now. This is something that makes me excited.

Hoping to become Pedi doctor was maybe too ambitious of me... but a Pedi nurse? I can see myself as that too.

It's amazing what thoughts come to you while in the shower.

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Just suck it up and take it in stride

The only direction I can move is forward... no backward steps are allowed ( Read more... )

ugh. I hate "lying" to him.

And it's not that she bugs me anymore... it's I guess the way he seemed to casually mention to me that he's going to be hanging out with her on Sunday. Like if I hadn't asked about his weekend and told him I didn't want to call the house only to be told that he wasn't home, he wouldn't have said anything about Sunday ( Read more... )

The more I dwell on all this... the fact that I'm not doing well in my classes and that I'm truly not all that happy... the more I come to realize I don't know why I am here ( Read more... )

Thinking about the future just seems to get scarier and scarier every time. Where am I going to be and where am I going to go? If I do graduate next year, thus finishing college in three years instead of the normal four, then I'm going to be heading off to work/intern while waiting for my acceptances (if there's any that is) into either med or grad ( Read more... )

I'm scared. Almost as scared as I was back in November ( Read more... )

god i'm so tired of crying ( Read more... )

It's not even 11 in the morning yet, and I feel shitty and depressed. What the hell is wrong with me ( Read more... )

This last weekend was one of the most fun, relaxing, loving, tiring, enjoying weekends I have had in a long time ( Read more... )