:: i'm tired of it all ::
It's not even 11 in the morning yet, and I feel shitty and depressed. What the hell is wrong with me?
Maybe it's because I miss him so much. Maybe it's because I'm tired of missing him so much. Maybe it's because I'm tired of feeling uncertain. Maybe it's because I'm tired of feeling scared and afraid that he's just going to leave & that he'll get that sudden urge to want something new. Maybe it's because I don't know what is going to happen. Maybe it's because I'm tired of rebuilding a damn wall that I dont' want to rebuild but can't help doing it. Maybe it's because I'm tired of feeling like this!
Always missing him. ALways wishing he were here. ALways wishing that I could be with him. ALways wishing things could be different.
I thought the effects of what happened last month would have worn off by now, but it hasn't. ANd it's driving me insane. SOmething's changed, and I can't pinpoint what exactly it is.
It needs to go away. EVerything needs to go away. My fears, my uncertainties, my insecurities, my doubts, my hurt, my pain, my worries... they all just need to disappear.
I'm almost at the point where I'm willing to do whatever it takes to make that happen...
I just wish I could be given a a sense of peace. Say or do something to soothe my fears and worries. Say or do something to make me believe...
Will I ever be able to trust and believe him, completely again? Like I did before?
Or was this all really meant to break my heart again?
Times is hard (times is hard)
And things are a changin'
I pray to God
That we can remain the same
All I'm trying to say is our love don't have to change
No it don't have to change
Maybe it's because I miss him so much. Maybe it's because I'm tired of missing him so much. Maybe it's because I'm tired of feeling uncertain. Maybe it's because I'm tired of feeling scared and afraid that he's just going to leave & that he'll get that sudden urge to want something new. Maybe it's because I don't know what is going to happen. Maybe it's because I'm tired of rebuilding a damn wall that I dont' want to rebuild but can't help doing it. Maybe it's because I'm tired of feeling like this!
Always missing him. ALways wishing he were here. ALways wishing that I could be with him. ALways wishing things could be different.
I thought the effects of what happened last month would have worn off by now, but it hasn't. ANd it's driving me insane. SOmething's changed, and I can't pinpoint what exactly it is.
It needs to go away. EVerything needs to go away. My fears, my uncertainties, my insecurities, my doubts, my hurt, my pain, my worries... they all just need to disappear.
I'm almost at the point where I'm willing to do whatever it takes to make that happen...
I just wish I could be given a a sense of peace. Say or do something to soothe my fears and worries. Say or do something to make me believe...
Will I ever be able to trust and believe him, completely again? Like I did before?
Or was this all really meant to break my heart again?
Times is hard (times is hard)
And things are a changin'
I pray to God
That we can remain the same
All I'm trying to say is our love don't have to change
No it don't have to change