Sometimes. You are a huge spaz. And sometimes that can be a most excellent thing. Hopefully it will turn into awesomeness. I'm wondering how often ancient civilizations are correct about future predictions. I wonder why we look the other way when rich people commit white collar crimes ( Read more... )

So I'm pretty optimistic about the country's future. I know I can't sit around feeling sorry for myself. I need to stop being upset that I got laid off because the economy is bad, and pick myself up and get another job. I know I can't just e-mail resumes and cover letters around till I'm blue in the face. I need to call people and organize. How do ( Read more... )

I wish it would stop fucking RAINING! I want to go to the park and be outside and not have this lousy miserable weather. C'mon! *sigh* So I went to the interview. Ya know I should have been way more excited and way more happy and thought gee this is a chance at my dream job with my dream company and my aren't I excited?!? So those of you who don't ( Read more... )

Two things ( Read more... )

My room looks fucking amazing and no one's here to appreciate it while it's still clean. It's....So.... ah. And I've gotten into the habit of strangely making large portions of food which I can never finish. I made two quiches the other day, I made a crap ton of blueberry muffins before that, banana-nutella crepes, before that chicken teriyaki and ( Read more... )

I will have a nice grill. You know with bling all over my teef. Ha ha. So I'm tired. I worked today, which is/was Sunday. Not a fan of working on Sundays, haven't had to do that for *years*. So many things went wrong with the machines and I'm not familiar with the ones at store 1207, so at one point I freaked out and started to scream. I scared ( Read more... )

I keep fighting and keep losing. Can't I win just at least once? Or am I that awful?

You can't go back you can't fathom what's going on. It's kind of a swirl of emotions. The other day I betrayed a dear friend, the depths of my madness finally swelled up and rose to meet my attention. The effects of what I had done and the people I was hurting and the person I continued to hurt over and over again smacked me in the face. A person I ( Read more... )

I realize that I am an individual confused with life right now. Drawing my film and letting hot large tears roll all over my Wacom didn't make for easy animating. Do you ever do something wrong, and the gravity of the situation doesn't hit you until much later when you realize you could lose a very good friend? I keep promising not to hurt people ( Read more... )

Can't say I'm too sad about the exchange of affairs between men and women. These sad and sorrowful secrets are little known to us who have no eyes to see the beauty within the mortals. No ears to hear the sweet murmurs of a soft voice, and no lips to kiss the fragrant lips of a soul that understands you so much it makes your heart hurt ( Read more... )