20 years old now and I still find myself lost sometimes. This is a normal feeling that young people feel but with that loss resides internal pain that no matter how you mask, doesn't seem to subside or disappear. I have everything going for me. I'm in college, have loving parents, great friends, health, etc. But there's always something that seems ( Read more... )

Ok so after the longest time I really need to write my emotions. Things are not going well with me unfortunately, I finally fell to the brink of my extreme. After two years of obsessing, thinking, and worrying I can't take it anymore! I can't handle my deepest problem anymore! If my only option is to live with it, then I would much rather not live ( Read more... )

hey everyone, i donated blood today, it was not as bad as i thought it would be at all. i practically couldnt feel it, only at the beginning it stung. it feels rewarding that i did something good. im really frustrated about something. today for norman news we were supposed to film a show, and i was supposed to anchor. and i did my part completely, ( Read more... )

all of u out there, dont make promises u cant keep.

hey guys, been busy lately, and dealing with lots of emotions. old feelings resurfaced about my body and such, so I've been dealing with that and trying to get it under control. and let's see wat else. just trying to deal with things day by day as it came. im feeling like im being taken for granted and unloved. and i really feel that i dont do the ( Read more... )

listening to all these lovey dovey things makes me sick.

I had a great weekend. EVen though for two days i was cooped up in the house, doing my homework and other work, i got to spend the other two days of my break with my boo. on tuesday during the day anna and i hung out at the beverly center, and we went to sephora, and i saw some pre-teen girls trying on a bunch of makeup and giggling and i couldnt ( Read more... )

ive had my license for oficially one year, since yesterday. so now i can drive between 12 and 5 AM. im trying to find som ething else i can do right now because im like procrastinating on my essays and i have to write a philosophy paper that i dont want to do. ugghhh y cant i just buckle down. ok im gonna do it starting now lets go janet

my baby did the best thing for me, he came to school to visit me and completely surprised me. it was the best surprise ever. it doesnt seem like much but it meant so much to me because i missed him so much, considering i hadnt seen him since last wednesday. i love him so much. i opened the door to the parking lot, and there he was standing right ( Read more... )

I love that now I can actually do the things I want to do and have more time for it. COmpared to last year school days seem so short. I started school last year at 7:00 am and end at 2:36 pm. and on wednesdays I'd be there from 7:00 am til 3:22 pm. and this year its 8:00 am til 1:00 pm. and on wednesdays this year i go from 9:38 am til 1:00 pm. ( Read more... )