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hey guys, been busy lately, and dealing with lots of emotions. old feelings resurfaced about my body and such, so I've been dealing with that and trying to get it under control. and let's see wat else. just trying to deal with things day by day as it came. im feeling like im being taken for granted and unloved. and i really feel that i dont do the same because i try and make an effort to make things better, and i review what things were like in the past and remember the good times, and appreciate everything, and i do get my hopes up, but then i get crushed, and i get so desensitized, that i feel like i dont even have a heart anymore. and its not like this had been happening for a couple of days it's been more like a couple of weeks. if i have one day of sereness and composure, it equals to about a week of pain, tears, and distress. im jealous of other peoples' relationships, whatever it may be. i miss what it used to be like, im just having problems. if things don't get better, im not sure how im going to deal with it. alright later gators.